Well, good luck with this Heidy. Just please be careful, and recognize your own limitations and motives. You crave an emotional intensity in your own life that not everybody shares.
I am not trying to make you feel defensive, but I should add that sometimes Junior Psychologists do get "clients" to recall incidents that trigger massive amounts of grief or anger. I had this happen personally with a dear friend who is a reiki practitioner working with her "spirit guides", and I've read many posts by one astrologer who actually tries to provoke his clients to tears.
Although such experiences can seem cathartic at the time to the "client" they can easily lead to subsequent feelings of being emotionally violated. In the days following my own cathartic experience with my friend, I actually began to feel that she had been too intrusive; and while we remain good friends, I never returned for further reiki sessions of this nature. I asked the above-mentioned astrologer how many repeat clients he had, and he didn't respond.
This is where psychological training is important. Professional therapists have had coursework and clinical experience in assisting clients through cathartic experiences, as well as follow-up care to ensure their subsequent well-being.
I also participated for about 12 years in the (former
est) Landmark Education programs, one of the human potential organizations specializing in "breakthrough" experiences, and they do a lot of the kind of work that you seem to be attempting. The difference is that their trainers themselves go through rigorous educational programs. Also, they have a practical plan for participants to pursue, following their emotionally painful experiences.
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You know, you made me aware of something when talked about Scorpios; this person has Sun Square Pluto at 0 degree orb and Mars square Pluto; the square from Mars is wider.
These are both really difficult aspects. Sun square Pluto people were often bullied as children and they grow up learning that they cannot trust other people to emotionally support them. They tend to see inter-personal relationships in a "dominate or be dominated" dynamic with winners and losers. Mars square Pluto is such a strong, aggressive energy that it is hard for people to express it constructively. If they can't do this, they are liable to suppress it, but the chart will express itself in some fashion, so they may attract violent people. Understandably, control issues are just huge for such people. They learn as children that vulnerability is dangerous.
One helpful possibility about Mars in the mix (and Mars traditionally rules Scorpio) is to take up some kind of martial art, such as boxing, or really any kind of athletic activity that provides a supportive and structured environment for letting out that suppressed aggression.
Muchacho, just to follow up on your comments, I think any sign is capable of strong feelings. My moon is in Leo in the 11th house but it is broadly conjunct and partile parallel with Pluto. Despite having a chart that is mostly air and fire, I have the capacity to form deep and loyal attachments. Also, thanks to Pluto's ruthless agenda for change and Leo's pride, those attachments get deeply wrenched, on occasion.
What I don't have is a water sign's ability to live life primarily
through moods, subjectivity, intuitions, and gut feelings. The rest of us, of course, have these, but not to the same extent. I have a dread of someone trying to emotionally manipulate me. Sun-Aquarian detachment has been a gift in my life.