I’m not 12th a houser, but I have a 12th house Chiron, both ruled by my Sun which I think gives it some significance. I suspect for this reason I ALWAYS feel as if I’m in the spotlight despite not at all wanting it. It causes paranoia for sure. Sun ruling the self, Chiron afflicting the house. Probably the cause of my nearly lifelong social anxiety
I’ve gotten to a point where I’ve realized that it’s not a matter of getting rid of this despicable subconscious assumption that I’m in the spotlight, but it’s a matter of learning how to handle it with better grace
In my case, it’s been my worst enemy but in no way do I believe it represents actual enemies despite the paranoia. I could always rationalize that for the most part, yet the feeling just doesn’t go away(by this, I mean I know and have known for years that even when I walk through a crowded hallway and feel the whole world can see me, no one gives a ****—should be liberating, but it doesn’t make the feeling go away). Therefor the solution must be to deal with that feeling, just run with it and stop despising it
My sun opposes Uranus my a wide angle which could add some eraticism, but it also has a harmonious aspect to Pluto which is probably beneficial to the sun ruled 12th house and Chiron regardless of its aspects
I’ve experienced a paranoia that I’m not good enough causing me to project onto others and feel as if they see me that way and that what they say or do is because of that. These traits were discussed in the thread so I can’t help but wonder if having a sun ruled 12th is at least similar to having a sun there
Connection to collective unconscious— Chiron(primal wound, wounded healer)in that house might also lead to paranoia if it’s an awareness of something that might afflict us all
Sun— the self. The sense of self or the ego perhaps suppressed or dissolved into that collective unconscious and needs to be reclaimed and owned
