I have no planets or asteroids in Pisces as far as I know but I have 5th house Pisces, Moon Mercury and Mars in house 12, and Neptune square the three aforementioned planets plus my Sun in house 11 from house 3. I want to escape from never knowing what to do, feeling lost in a sea of other people's emotions and thoughts and expectations, and conformity, among other things. It's true in my opinion what I read on another site about Pisces, that Pisces would rather swim in someone else's current than their own... Well, that's partly true. I want to go with my own flow, I think, but I have no idea what that is. It just feels natural to really immerse myself in other people. When I smoke weed, which is rarely, I feel centered and amazing and focused and euphoric, but I usually end up feeling really paranoid afterwards so, yeah...it helps about as much as it hurts...
So now I'm reading articles about "How to Set Boundaries", because I literally don't know what it means to have boundaries, or what it feels like, but I can intuitively understand that several people in my life believe I need to set them, and if setting boundaries will help me define myself it's worth a shot. I feel like everything Neptune touches it turns it into a hazy, boundless something or other which has no clearly definable shape or purpose. That image is never clear so it always feels like there's an element of dishonesty involved, or inadequacy on my behalf, because I can't find the answers. I can't sneak up behind Neptune and surprise it and figure out all it's secrets. I can't outsmart it, or beat it senseless until it breaks. I don't know how to communicate with this thing. I don't even know if it knows I exist. Can it see me? Hear me? Can it sense my presence in any way or even partially as much as I can sense it?...That's what Neptune's influence feels like. Like I am desperately, hopelessly, obsessively trying to make contact with something out of this world for any kind of answer...A blip, a blink, anything....
Neptune feels like my mind turning to mush. Like a vortex has taken place where my brain should be. Neptune feels like a galaxy with lots of bright lights and even more dark space in between. What are those lights? Planets, comets, stars, asteroids? It feels like in the end, I may never really know...