Hey there, i'm posting because (i'm not really sure) let us just go with "I'm Posting"
So i've been doing alot of thinking, which is what i usually do, but lately alot of in a wierd direction i guess. I'm gonna try and piece it in a more organized way.
I'm at a stall at the moment i think, how can i put this into words... I been trying to do some research with hopes it would help me with concrete answers of what i should be aiming for professionally that would make me more feel usefull maybe.
I was wondering if i could get some feedback regarding professional tendencies i might have.. Because regardless of my basic notions i feel completly lost. So if at all possible and if it is not a hassle i would apreciate it. (I think it would help me cope with everything else if i felt i was on the right track)
Also, regarding the emotional shenanigans, i dont think i've made any progress on that front, if anything else i think i might have regressed abit, been questioning some friendships lately, and the emotional frustration has been just adding to the cart, in the end of the day this whole "lets be alone and **** everyone else" is not really working, and even tho i do not dare to show it.. This lonelyness is tearing me. Thing is objectively, i don't know what 2 do about it.. there does'nt seem to be anyone out there. Stuff has been complicated in general and it literally draining my will to do things. Which overral just adds to the feeling of lack of guidance.
Ps - god this surely sounds depressing, a friend of mine said that this would be a rough year, several people said that this and the next year would be a "transformation process", I don't feel that, i noticed that stuff changed but if anything else, i'm pulling myself further away from people. The fact that i'm on a forum asking for advice kinda shows my lack of sense in what to do at the moment.
Oh i also haven't been getting any sleep, i have sleep issues but it has been getting worse in the last couple of weeks.