surrealsuburb123
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The Saturn in Aries thing is very eerie as well. My dad does see himself in me, and pressures me because he claims that he doesn't want me to face the same problems he has had. He did have me during his Saturn return, and of course that was a very pivotal time. He said that when I was born, the course of his life changed and he had to make many sacrifices (career wise). That's when he came to America. But also, he explains to me that his mother, father, and only brother died before and around the time when I was born. His mother died when he was a teenager, but his father was an alcoholic and my dad didn't know him well. His father also hit his mother and him. I think the death of his brother affected him strongly because his brother took care of him when their mother died, and he was the only person that helped him. Now that all his family is gone, he feels lonely.
But my dad was an alcoholic for a time as well. I was around 6-9 years old during this time. He wasn't as mean to me then, but he was very irresponsible and this was when he fought and argued A LOT with my mother. I know this sounds strange, but during this time, I was the one who would try to make them make-up. I hated their fighting, but little did I know later on it would be directed towards me.
I just wanted to give a little background to some things.
Now all everyone on the thread has been wanting me to find a way out, and I do have options. I am only 15 and therefore too young to live on my own, and I have no other family members. But, I have the option of escaping until college. My father wants to send me to a boarding school, where I'd be living there during the school year. I also have the option to study abroad for a year. If I do got accepted, like BluEyedGrl mentioned Saturn transiting the 9th, this will be a way to build a stronger career foundation, but also cultivate the distance I need to find a way to improve my relationship with my family (greybeard, Lin, Aquarius700, princessvalhalla mentioned and suggested). This would be my only practical plan, Lin.
I have one question, though: will things get better? If I do get accepted to the school, I think that may be one step to change. I know my chart has set up important life lessons that are veiled by difficulties, but I am willing to overcome them. I'm just scared sometimes, I'll be honest.
But I'll say this again, thank you to nth power for the support, advice and input. Thank you so much. I will keep reading and re-reading your advice and keep it in the back of my head. I've come to many realizations thanks to you guys. All the astrological insight from greybeard and others have affirmed a lot of things, but also opened my eyes.
Thanks again.
Surreal
But my dad was an alcoholic for a time as well. I was around 6-9 years old during this time. He wasn't as mean to me then, but he was very irresponsible and this was when he fought and argued A LOT with my mother. I know this sounds strange, but during this time, I was the one who would try to make them make-up. I hated their fighting, but little did I know later on it would be directed towards me.
I just wanted to give a little background to some things.
Now all everyone on the thread has been wanting me to find a way out, and I do have options. I am only 15 and therefore too young to live on my own, and I have no other family members. But, I have the option of escaping until college. My father wants to send me to a boarding school, where I'd be living there during the school year. I also have the option to study abroad for a year. If I do got accepted, like BluEyedGrl mentioned Saturn transiting the 9th, this will be a way to build a stronger career foundation, but also cultivate the distance I need to find a way to improve my relationship with my family (greybeard, Lin, Aquarius700, princessvalhalla mentioned and suggested). This would be my only practical plan, Lin.
I have one question, though: will things get better? If I do get accepted to the school, I think that may be one step to change. I know my chart has set up important life lessons that are veiled by difficulties, but I am willing to overcome them. I'm just scared sometimes, I'll be honest.
But I'll say this again, thank you to nth power for the support, advice and input. Thank you so much. I will keep reading and re-reading your advice and keep it in the back of my head. I've come to many realizations thanks to you guys. All the astrological insight from greybeard and others have affirmed a lot of things, but also opened my eyes.
Thanks again.
Surreal