Hmmm.
. Yes, a big baby.
Anyway, today I was reading somewhere that its a myth that marriage is for making you happier. One should take it as if God created marriage to make you stronger.You can see your weaknesses clearly and also test your strengths. And you learn to forgive. Something in these lines...And I am beginning to understand that to seek happiness outside oneself is a blunder.
But even after reading all this cool stuff, I know when its the time to test, I would fail. I would feel bad, when he would insult me. I would not have the guts to fight back, and it would hurt my pride, my self esteem.
So, what I want now, is to train my heart to just ignore his stupidity. I am trying to train my mind to not mind at all. That way, I will try to be intact.
And about love... well, I can not spend a life looking for love. I already spend almost decade of it, looking for it, praying for it. Don't want to spend any more in it. And I have enough love of many people. My family..my friends..my well wishers.. and God. I am thankful to all of them.
. This man can not take away any of this love from me. Never.
Anyway, I had a talk with him today, and I said to him that its important to be respectful to each other, else relationship is meaningless.
Thank you all.