Rahu,
This is jaw-droppingly and eerily accurate to how I’ve felt about us. Here are some observations below;
hi nameless
the composite chart is a bit difficult as there seem to be strong impulse for union but also strong impulses for separation.
the stellium of Saturn/Venus/sun/Saturn/mercury/Pluto is symbolic of a strong affection and happiness between you. with mars square to Saturn and venus, there are feelings of devotion . but with the Saturn/Pluto midpoint on the sun ,it seems that this love would be very restrictive and controlling.
He has made attempts at restricting and controlling, which have led to huge arguments. In the end, he pushes to restrict and control and demands freedom. I force him to grant me the same freedoms….and we both end up uncomfortable with each other’s freedom, or both end up restricting and controlling each other.
on the other hand Jupiter is conjunct to Chiron and opposed to Uranus and the moon. this is a n impulse of sudden ,electric, emotional attraction with a strong impulse for a immediate marriage.
the problem is that Uranus/Jupiter aspects are very unstable and fore bode a breakup or separation down the line.
with a strong Saturn influence and a strong Uranus influence, this relationship is marked as up and down, off and on, that is you are either totally enchanted with him or you are despondent and feeling his coldness. there is no center group or emotional balance. successful relationship can not exist when there is only love or hate with no room for compromise .
YES- it was fireworks and this deep sense of “second chances” when we met, and we still feel that. He is more stable about our relationship whereas I feel very on and off. Early on we would get into heated debates because it bothered him when I would say “I’m never getting married again”. From the very very beginning, I have felt his urge to marry me.
the Jupiter/juno midpoint is square to the sun/venus/Saturn/pluto/mercury stellium which is very unfavorable for a marriage or committed relationship as it shows that personal ambition and/or financial issues are more important to him that the emotional nature of the relationship itself .
I don't see him being unfaithful directly but I don't see him being loving and compassionate , rather, as I have said , he is very controlling sand domineering and not really concerned about love per se.
I tend to get a feeling he is an opportunist and not a true soul mate so to speak.
I think he would be pushing for a marriage sometime in October or later but I would suggest you break off the relationship before then.
looking at his chart... his is amazingly intelligent and highlt psychic. but he is extremely manipulative and selfish , though he ca seem very compassionate and sincere.he has venus conjunct Neptune and the vertex and square to pholous. this would tend to show he likes multiple relationships and would work against his sense of fidelity.in additonhe is extremely deceptive and might have drug/alcohol issues. but the strongest characteristic is his ability to control other peoples mind. so I assume that when you are with him all you doubts about him vanish, but the when you are alone you start doubting him. this is the power of his mind, he can control and influence your thoughts.
so you are not crazy..... he is causing you to feel "crazy" .
rahu
Whoa. Whoa….whoa.
I did always have a suspicion that his compassion is not sincere. He also has a tendency to be extremely deceptive and I know he was able to manipulate in relationships with ease. I have a semi photographic memory, however, and he has had to really adjust his instinct to lie because I remember every little mundane detail about every conversation we have ever had. I know I can be extremely deceptive, but I feel compelled to be honest around him. No drug/alcohol issues (on his part), but definitely the mind control is spot on. When I’m in the same room with him, I melt. All I feel is compassion, love, yearning…you name it. The moment we are apart I doubt every feeling I have about him.
The thing I’ve been wondering is what role do I play in all of this… I know I can be extremely manipulative, controlling, possessive, and emotionally erratic. I’m so paranoid that he might hurt me that I sometimes forget just how much I could hurt him. He has this strange type of attachment to me where often he wants to be held like a child and be taken care of. He sometimes has flashbacks of being a child holding his mother’s hand when we hold hands, and sometimes I remind him of her.
As far as opportunistic goes- he doesn’t have much to gain from me financially, but I do sometimes get this idea that because I’m 12 years younger, he can get a second chance at having a family from me. The priority definitely feels like its about what he can get from my youth and my womb than what we can experience together. But perhaps my sense of self is so messed up that I feel flattered by it.
Rahu, I can’t express how eery this reading was. Specifically when you said he has a powerful mind and can control and influence my thoughts when he’s near me, and how my thinking suddenly shifts when he’s not around. Bravo.