aquarianbd
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I just read feelingalaxy's post in the forum. He really encouraged me to come out with my problem publicly. Kudos to him.
My problems are somewhat, if not entirely, similar to him.
I am a homosexual.I had some bad experiences regarding sex in my adolescence. I made advances to someone(who i was dating at the time), but he refused me(i dont know why he was dating me-but refused to have sex-maybe because he was religious or because we were distant relatives).
I felt terribly insulted and later... guilty... it was in 2004. From then onwards i have refrained myself from any kind of sexual activities...except well touching myself. That makes me more or less a virgin.
Like feelingalaxy I also think of sex as something ugly nowadays-at least ugly for me....I have a strong sexual drive and a tendency to dominate in sex which is not moral. I get attracted to opportunists and amoral people because (as my therapist says) I can sexually dominate them without any qualms...However, I always maintain a good distance to such people to whom I am sexually addicted.
However, I am loving. Love to me is pure,beautiful. I want to protect and improve those I love.I love greatly, I am just not sexually attracted to my lovers.But I can love a lot.
there is another oddity of obsessing over a past platonic love (my first love when i was 10 years old). I dream of him every night.... Is there any karmic debts between us?
Here is it-I am already taking therapies but I want to know astrology's take on it. English is not my native language. So please bear with me.
Thank you for reading these as far. i really hope it isnt against the forum rules. I am really sorry if it is.
MY BIRTH DETAILS :-
22 JANUARY 1988
COMILLA, BANGLADESH
around 12.15 pm local time
my friend's dob-14 july 1988
My problems are somewhat, if not entirely, similar to him.
I am a homosexual.I had some bad experiences regarding sex in my adolescence. I made advances to someone(who i was dating at the time), but he refused me(i dont know why he was dating me-but refused to have sex-maybe because he was religious or because we were distant relatives).
I felt terribly insulted and later... guilty... it was in 2004. From then onwards i have refrained myself from any kind of sexual activities...except well touching myself. That makes me more or less a virgin.
Like feelingalaxy I also think of sex as something ugly nowadays-at least ugly for me....I have a strong sexual drive and a tendency to dominate in sex which is not moral. I get attracted to opportunists and amoral people because (as my therapist says) I can sexually dominate them without any qualms...However, I always maintain a good distance to such people to whom I am sexually addicted.
However, I am loving. Love to me is pure,beautiful. I want to protect and improve those I love.I love greatly, I am just not sexually attracted to my lovers.But I can love a lot.
there is another oddity of obsessing over a past platonic love (my first love when i was 10 years old). I dream of him every night.... Is there any karmic debts between us?
Here is it-I am already taking therapies but I want to know astrology's take on it. English is not my native language. So please bear with me.
Thank you for reading these as far. i really hope it isnt against the forum rules. I am really sorry if it is.
MY BIRTH DETAILS :-
22 JANUARY 1988
COMILLA, BANGLADESH
around 12.15 pm local time
my friend's dob-14 july 1988
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