I've had a crazy stressful week. The kind of scenario when 3 things go wrong
at once and you spend all week fixing them. Its a funny story when I phoned Sky about my wifi, that's an anecdote of its own. Then Ive not been sleeping til later and not slept since the night before now. Had such an intense night last night here I have decided it would take too long to write here so Im making its own post.
I wanted to put a couple of conclusions down here about the recent negativity before I do though. My intense exploration last night naturally went back to the forum and Im able to be more objective.
- First of all, I stick by all my beliefs, but I shall refrain from communicating them in the forum again out of respect purely for the goodness of the forum.
- Although I think CT was a bit harsh towards me at times, I do admit I was questioning him and like trying to peak passed someone's boundaries. He admitted this to me about feeling a 'darkness' coming from me. Maybe I was putting too much pressure on him and that led to this.
However, here are my thoughts about both of ours behaviour.
For me, I am strong but sensitive. As any other strong but sensitive person will tell you, when you come across so confident, others don't see the sensitive side is separate to that and can be easily hurt by backlash from its own energy. That is my energy to learn to control, I have gotten better at it but there we go.
- For CT, its similar in the sense he comes older than he is and so its easy to forget he is younger. Therefore, I give him more pressure than what a 21/22 year old can take, when you begin to ask questions or poke their outer shell. Like my energy, he must also take responsibility that if he wants the title of being very mature, then a learning how to handle this or recognize it more clearly would help you have less stress when similar situations arise.
"The last thing I want to say is, I personally found it a low blow to say 'lost cause' and trip me up like you did because it felt like you were using my background against me. However, having reflected on the above conclusions, your age must also be taken into consideration here.
When I was your age, I had no control of my particular energy lol I was way more sensitive but would accidently upset people by being rude to them.
Your different in the sense you are a Plutonian and I am not. You also have more time to catch up and make mistakes like I did. Like a baby dragon, or baby devil that's already cursing."
Plutonians find it easier to find weaknesses in others or have the temptation to be manipulative. There is no middle ground with Pluto. Either you surrender and have integrity or you will trip up by the very same manipulations and lies.
This is something all Plutonians will have to make a choice to do IMO.
To sum up, let's *everybody* take responsibility for our own mistakes and shadow, and you never know, there may be less fighting.