aquarianbd
Well-known member
My life in a nutshell:-
Born in a depressive environment, I became a victim of it quite early.Add to that, I am not straight.I am attracted to members of my own sex.My grandmother,who was a vital part of my childhood ,died when I was 11,and I faced great trauma.Later I was recognized with bipolar mood disorder and chronic depression. I first attempted suicide when I was 13.
There was a time when I somewhat went ashtray. I used to make dramatic stories about myself,I became a compulsive liar. But thanks to GOD, I didnot stay there for a long time. I did some sins which I cant disclose here-but then,I just tried to be a good person.
i AM NOT A GOOD PERSON EVEN NOW. i AM slightly manipulative,possessive and very stubborn and lazy. I am too much dependent on my family-especially my mom and dad. The thought that they might die before me makes me suicidal. And yes, I am not attempting suicide now only because my mom will be destitute if i do that.
Identifying that sex brings the worst in me,I have refrained myself from any sexual relationship/one night stand with anyone since 2004.
I want to be a good human being however short my presence is in this universe.. Is there really scope for me? I want guidance. Linda GOOdman mentioned-when the student is ready,the teacher will come. I know I am not yet ready, but what can I Do to make myself ready??
Thanks everyone.My chart is attached below.
Born in a depressive environment, I became a victim of it quite early.Add to that, I am not straight.I am attracted to members of my own sex.My grandmother,who was a vital part of my childhood ,died when I was 11,and I faced great trauma.Later I was recognized with bipolar mood disorder and chronic depression. I first attempted suicide when I was 13.
There was a time when I somewhat went ashtray. I used to make dramatic stories about myself,I became a compulsive liar. But thanks to GOD, I didnot stay there for a long time. I did some sins which I cant disclose here-but then,I just tried to be a good person.
i AM NOT A GOOD PERSON EVEN NOW. i AM slightly manipulative,possessive and very stubborn and lazy. I am too much dependent on my family-especially my mom and dad. The thought that they might die before me makes me suicidal. And yes, I am not attempting suicide now only because my mom will be destitute if i do that.
Identifying that sex brings the worst in me,I have refrained myself from any sexual relationship/one night stand with anyone since 2004.
I want to be a good human being however short my presence is in this universe.. Is there really scope for me? I want guidance. Linda GOOdman mentioned-when the student is ready,the teacher will come. I know I am not yet ready, but what can I Do to make myself ready??
Thanks everyone.My chart is attached below.