aquarianbd
Well-known member
I have written here before.
I have been called spoiled-which at that moment seemed true-but now I think I am dependent, not spoiled.
I have an array of problems. I am homosexual , have to hide my identity as I Live in a conservative country and I feel guilty for it. I have bipolar mood disorder- I am on medication which is killing all my creativity day by day. I have social anxieties and obsession with past. I am terribly lonely.My family has a thousand problems.
but most of all i am just fade up, with humans. There is no feeling of brotherhood, only an urge to get ahead.Life is maybe a rat race but I am not a rat.I feel suicidal. I have been out of touch with studies for more than 4 years. i just dont feel the energy, the strength. I lack ambition.spiritual growth?yes. but how to learn cat-fighting with others???
I am suicidal. but i think of my mom and restrain myself. I am leading a life of no importance.,no future.
Is there any way to help me???
I have been called spoiled-which at that moment seemed true-but now I think I am dependent, not spoiled.
I have an array of problems. I am homosexual , have to hide my identity as I Live in a conservative country and I feel guilty for it. I have bipolar mood disorder- I am on medication which is killing all my creativity day by day. I have social anxieties and obsession with past. I am terribly lonely.My family has a thousand problems.
but most of all i am just fade up, with humans. There is no feeling of brotherhood, only an urge to get ahead.Life is maybe a rat race but I am not a rat.I feel suicidal. I have been out of touch with studies for more than 4 years. i just dont feel the energy, the strength. I lack ambition.spiritual growth?yes. but how to learn cat-fighting with others???
I am suicidal. but i think of my mom and restrain myself. I am leading a life of no importance.,no future.
Is there any way to help me???