aquarianbd
Well-known member
please read my chart in western way and give me some hope(if there is any)
i am told i am very lucky!!!sun in the 10th house in aquarius,most planets above the horizon . But in reality,i am struggling to live. Too much sensitive to survive (moon conjunct venus in pisces) ,i am a depot of mental illnesses.lets count them-i am bipolar.chronic depressive,and i am gay(though i dont count it as an illness). these problems have made me reclusive. i have to hide my orientation(i live in asia) and thats a constant strain to my psyche. I am 29, more or less a virgin because of my lofty ideals.i was very sensuous once,but i found out sex is able to turn on the devil in me-so i try to repress it. Once a very good student,i dropped my studies.i cannot stick in any everyday profession. I am suicidal.and yea-lazy.
The earth is a ratrace.i refuse to be a rat.i dream of like-minded people living altogether and loving each other(and not doing any work,hahaha)
These are the facts i know about myself. Now will you people be kind enough,to point me what is drawing me back?which planet?which aspect?is there any solution at all?is there sth about me i dont know ??anything?
Any help will be greatly appreciated.i really need help.may all your good karma be with you.
i am told i am very lucky!!!sun in the 10th house in aquarius,most planets above the horizon . But in reality,i am struggling to live. Too much sensitive to survive (moon conjunct venus in pisces) ,i am a depot of mental illnesses.lets count them-i am bipolar.chronic depressive,and i am gay(though i dont count it as an illness). these problems have made me reclusive. i have to hide my orientation(i live in asia) and thats a constant strain to my psyche. I am 29, more or less a virgin because of my lofty ideals.i was very sensuous once,but i found out sex is able to turn on the devil in me-so i try to repress it. Once a very good student,i dropped my studies.i cannot stick in any everyday profession. I am suicidal.and yea-lazy.
The earth is a ratrace.i refuse to be a rat.i dream of like-minded people living altogether and loving each other(and not doing any work,hahaha)
These are the facts i know about myself. Now will you people be kind enough,to point me what is drawing me back?which planet?which aspect?is there any solution at all?is there sth about me i dont know ??anything?
Any help will be greatly appreciated.i really need help.may all your good karma be with you.
Attachments
Last edited: