JenniferThiesing
Well-known member
Lately, Ive been real down, dealing with anxiety, depression which has been a life long ordeal so far.. All I wanna do is be left alone from the world. Event after event keeps happening, and everyone just expects me to be a rock and take everyones **** and listen to them complain day after day about any and everything. I am understanding and I love to help people, but I dont have it in return. I dont have anyone to confide in or vent too. I just supress and supress. Being strong is getting harder and harder. I work fulltime, come home listen to my mom and dad argue, or vent about each other to me. Right before saturn left my 11th house I lost my two closest friends because I couldnt be around the toxic environment, Im just tired. So tired of life. I keep having mood swings. I go from fine to angry in 2.2 seconds. I really just feel like giving up, but Im not . I just need advice how to deal. I try to meditate but in this house meditation its not reachable. Never any peace .. never quiet.. never alone. I just crave solitude. I want to move out but cant yet, I just finally got my first car and its still a struggle trying to put plates and all that because I have no help. Im try to be patient and deal. Im just sick of feeling like I move forward and then back with no real support. Im really not trying to be whiney or complain like I have the worse life ever, because I know I do not. I thank god everyday just to be alive for the things I do have. These emotions are just getting stronger and stronger .. and i keep telling myself there just emotions. These emotions are taking all of my energy. I have no clue what to do. An words of wisdom would be appreciated. Thank you very much. This is the place I turn to when I need help..And I appreciate all of the knowledge and wisdom shared to me over this past year.