My husband and I are about to conceive our first child. This morning, out of curiousity, I was looking at the ephemeris to get an idea of what the planetary positions are likely to be at the time our child is born, assuming it doesn't take too long to conceive.
The thing that jumped out at me is that their North Node is likely to conjunct a stellium I have of Mars, Saturn, and Pluto, in Libra and in my 9th house. This stellium squares my Venus and my nodal axis. And this stellium has been extremely problematic for me throughout my entire life.
To add to this, both of my parents also have their North Node where my Mars/Saturn/Pluto stellium is. Both of them were extremely abusive, which definitely played out in this aspect, which has affected my relationships with men. My father, who was definitely the worse of the 2, died last October. My mother is still alive, but I don't trust her with our children. A reunion may be possible, but not during pregnancy and infancy where any stress she may inflict on me may affect our child even more. Before my husband, every man I was with was simply awful, as far as my husband goes, trusting him is getting easier the longer we're together, but I'm not completely there yet. Despite this, our relationship is stronger than most, I can count the number of fights we've had since being together on the fingers of one had, and he is truly my best friend. In any case, sharing the same nodal aspect with our child that I had with my parents scares me.
I'll attach my chart, my husband's, our synastry, our composite, and what our first child's natal chart is likely to look like, and the link to the ephemeris for 2014, when our child is likely to be born. Any insight on any of the following would be great:
-How we're likely to go with conceiving. I remember once before meeting my husband when reading my chart, it looked like I may not even get to have children at all, someone else who I spoke to said twins are likely.
-If we are able to conceive, what is our family likely to be like? I want 3 children, my husband wants 2 but is warming up to 3 assuming our finances will allow it, and having at least 1 daughter is very important to both of us.
-Just how strong is my relationship with my husband? Right now, obviously, it's amazing, but how about long-term?
-Based on the chart attached, what do we need to know about this first child in order to guide them properly? I'm especially worried about the fact that they're likely to have a grand cross in their chart, my parents had the same. :-(
Thanks for your help!
http://www.astro.com/swisseph/ae/2000/ae_2014.pdf
The thing that jumped out at me is that their North Node is likely to conjunct a stellium I have of Mars, Saturn, and Pluto, in Libra and in my 9th house. This stellium squares my Venus and my nodal axis. And this stellium has been extremely problematic for me throughout my entire life.
To add to this, both of my parents also have their North Node where my Mars/Saturn/Pluto stellium is. Both of them were extremely abusive, which definitely played out in this aspect, which has affected my relationships with men. My father, who was definitely the worse of the 2, died last October. My mother is still alive, but I don't trust her with our children. A reunion may be possible, but not during pregnancy and infancy where any stress she may inflict on me may affect our child even more. Before my husband, every man I was with was simply awful, as far as my husband goes, trusting him is getting easier the longer we're together, but I'm not completely there yet. Despite this, our relationship is stronger than most, I can count the number of fights we've had since being together on the fingers of one had, and he is truly my best friend. In any case, sharing the same nodal aspect with our child that I had with my parents scares me.
I'll attach my chart, my husband's, our synastry, our composite, and what our first child's natal chart is likely to look like, and the link to the ephemeris for 2014, when our child is likely to be born. Any insight on any of the following would be great:
-How we're likely to go with conceiving. I remember once before meeting my husband when reading my chart, it looked like I may not even get to have children at all, someone else who I spoke to said twins are likely.
-If we are able to conceive, what is our family likely to be like? I want 3 children, my husband wants 2 but is warming up to 3 assuming our finances will allow it, and having at least 1 daughter is very important to both of us.
-Just how strong is my relationship with my husband? Right now, obviously, it's amazing, but how about long-term?
-Based on the chart attached, what do we need to know about this first child in order to guide them properly? I'm especially worried about the fact that they're likely to have a grand cross in their chart, my parents had the same. :-(
Thanks for your help!
http://www.astro.com/swisseph/ae/2000/ae_2014.pdf