i have this opposition within 2'. sun aquarius/leo asc.
i have always had a strong orientation toward relationships & partnerships, often feeling like me alone in world isn't enough. a sense that i'm only as bright as the light that is shining on me. i form love relationships and friendships readily and eagerly, but often find myself backpeddling, or trying to escape, once i'm involved. i love the companionship, but often regret the obligation involved.
it's a double bind, for sure.
i always want someone to bounce my ideas off of ( merc is in aquarius in 7th as well, opposite uranus leo in 1st) but am very intolerant with people who don't understand my ideas or thoughts.
the sun-asc aspect also gives me the ability to put myself in others shoes, and i absolutely abhor inequity and unfairness on any level. my family always ribbed me for my childhood cries, "it's not fair!"
and still now, i am constantly aware and disturbedwhen someone's getting the short end of the stick. i think this is more of an aquarius 7th sun issue.
sun opp asc ~ in leo/aquarius ~ 1st to 7th was summed up astutely by astrologer Jayj Jacobs ~
"one part of you wants to be on stage, another part wants to be in the audience tossing the tomatoes."
this was the best description i've ever heard.
I feel the same about fairness. Nothing pisses me off like injustice-not only, but ESPECIALLY when it's done to me.
I have Sun in 22 Pisces conjunct Venus in 16 Pisces, both conjunct DC(Sun in 7th, Venus in 6th), both trine Pluto in 15 Scorpio.
I also have that being on the stage and throwing tomatoes thing, but not strong enough for it to bother me on a daily basis.
Being a Pisces-heavy person, I'm able to make fun of myself without having a bruised ego.
I don't really want to be "on a stage", I'm a natural-born introvert, but I DO want to feel appreciated, loved, admired..I mean, who doesn't?
As far as relationships go, I have been almost terrified of them all of my life-still am.
When I was a kid, like up until I reached puberty, I cared more about having a close friend, but after that, I went through a lot of nasty disappointments in people that made me get the message that I have to learn to live alone, or else I'll always have someone trying to take advantage of me.
I will turn 23 in a few weeks, and haven't had a boyfriend, and I don't trust people to the point of not going on a trip if someone I don't like will be on it.
I only have one close friend. I've had some nasty fights with her, but we're still together, despite our differences.
We've known each other since she was 7 and I was 6, so we have a long history, and she's earned my trust over the years.
Other than that, the only 2 people I've ever loved were my mother and my older sister(an Aquarius, with Cap Moon, and Cancer Rising). And one cat I had last year, that died at the age of 6 months.
But then, these are diferences that probably come from other places in the chart. I have a tight Venus-Pluto trine and one description I read for this aspect said I don't waste emotions on people who don't seem "worthy", which is generally true, even though obssessive infatuations have gotten the best of me, at times...
I cannot say that I don't long for affection, at times, but, mostly I feel like I have to work on being as self-sufficient as possible, and learn to love myself, regardless of what others say or think of me.