I am very old school re much in life and believe all kids must have their sun snd moon archtype developed through parents that identify strongly with these archtypes, pretty much how human society has always been re role playings. When I had my son, I knew nothing about astrology. In fact, I started getting into astrology accidentally due to my horrific Pluto transits. And also the NDE I had during that labour most likely changed my brain wiring, research shows all NDE cases become radically spiritual. I was an ACTIVE Athiest, not just a typical Athiest, I used to arrange Dawkins and Krauss visits to my university, I was high ranking in a local chapter Athiest club etc.
After my NDE and slowly after the worst year of my : 2013 followed by the horrific 2018- today time cycle ( Pluto hammered me, it’s not over, since now it’s opposing my ASC…. It’ll give me a break in 2027 probably) I got into astrology bc I couldn’t logically figure out why I was facing so many issues, why so many psychos were entering my life, why people that owed me so much favour overnight turned on me etc etc
So astrology helped me understand what was happening. W virgo stellium, and moon Pluto, I NEED to know things logically and assess them in a tangible scientific way so that I can cope and move on.
My son is a daddy’s boy bc he has sun and Venus on MC. Fused w MC. That’s why. He was born worshiping his dad. And he worships his son. It’s creepy how much they love each other at times. But I have a psychological power over my son. His scorpionic moon is channeled through my obsession w occult and astrology and horror movies, my son HATES astrology, but he’s also fascinated by it. He comes to me at times asking whether his chart is ok, but 90% of the time he just mocks astrology and I ignore his mockery. Chiron in 12th is about his fear of astrology and paranormal. He is scared of it. But he’s also fascinated by it. My husband is now more into astrology though he was mocking it up until recently. He’s now becoming less skeptical. But that’s expected. He’s a PhD scientist, I’m surrounded by people who mock astrology and mock me. My entire family of doctors mock me. All my siblings, all 6 of them, mock me. They wonder if I need to get psychiatric help but my husband told them I’m saner than anyone he knows. And they all know it. My son’s lunar pain is witnessing how much I’m unhappy in this nation which isn’t my birth place, it’s my husband’s, how alone I am here, not just in terms of friends and family, also fans, how much my own family and others mock his mother, how much I never wanted this ( I had a top job offer to move to Singapore and my contraception failed, he knows the amount of sacrifice I’ve made). I haven’t lived for anyone other than him since he’s born, but it’s not anyone’s problem. It’s my problem. My own decision. And I’m old school about it, I don’t moan, I get on w life and I believe in “ actions have consequences”. Sometimes, we have to make lemonade from lemons and sacrifice. Now, next year, when Pluto is opposing me w 0 deg orb, that’s when it’s time for me to leave and live for me. And I’m sure my son will have a hard time accepting that, but he’s also old enough then, and he knows how much more tragedies I personally had to deal with when I was much younger. I talked to him about my life, childhood, war, horrific stuff, when he was as young as 4. He is raised to be very global, very aware, and very tough. So he will have to get used to my departure. I don’t want to take him back to America bc America, from what I hear, isn’t the place you want to move to these days. But I miss home. I’ve had it.