Feeling like this life has played out..

Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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waybread said:
The NN of your personal growth is in Capricorn, in the sign of friendships as well as your hopes and wishes for the future. So how well would you say you have grown in your 11th house matters, in a pragmatic sort of way? How have you been helpful to your friends and associates?

I recently became an official senior citizen, and am finding old age to be a very different sort of experience from youth and middle age. Just now I feel driven to be helpful to people before I pack in. With your loaded 6th house, this would be something to consider.
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That's pretty much what I've done, is help friends, co workers etc..
I'm kinda done with it, in a way... I feel taken advantage of.
It's seems that most people want me around, is so I can do things for them..
I'm just want peace and I feel I've done my part in the world in this matter..
I really no longer want to continue on this path.
 
waybread

waybread

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Sounds like a pity-party! Why not re-visualize your NN and concept of service? There are people in Africa, and elsewhere in the world who could truly use your help. Have you thought of the Peace Corps or its moral equivalent in the US?

Do you have people who love you?
 
Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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waybread said:
Sounds like a pity-party! Why not re-visualize your NN and concept of service? There are people in Africa, and elsewhere in the world who could truly use your help. Have you thought of the Peace Corps or its moral equivalent in the US?

Do you have people who love you?
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It's not a pity part, to say the least, as I have stated I'm just at an end with that cycle... ( so to speak)
I have 2kids that I support..
Leaving the country is not something I would want to do.
I travel back and fourth from Mexico, and it's not really by choice.. More of an obligation. That's about as far as I go out side of the US.
Not that I want to sound selfish, im just at a point that, that's not what I want to do at this time..
I've tried other methods of helping people.. Ie I became a Reiki practioner.
I need another direction now..
Currently I am doing creative projects as outlets, which doesn't really help anyone.. But it helps keeps my mind clear and focused.

Maybe it's my Pisces asc, that is taking time out to refresh, or the transit Saturn square. But at this time, I'm not to keen about being around people that need something from me...
That's not a pity party, that's just the way I'm feeling.
 
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dr. farr

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Why don't you try to perhaps do more, maybe "business-wise", with your sewing and scarves? Give this consideration some creative thought and see if you come up with anything!
 
Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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dr. farr said:
Why don't you try to perhaps do more, maybe "business-wise", with your sewing and scarves? Give this consideration some creative thought and see if you come up with anything!
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Yes, I have been thinking of that... I'm still making them, and I'm getting better.
Once I have a heavty stock, then I will look into possibly selling them.
I'm also trying to come up with some unique styles, I'm still experimenting.
As if right now, I have 3 different types of styles.

I have also been transferring picture images onto wood pieces.
I was thinking about that also.

I made a mosiac table this weekend, but I need more practice on that one... Lol
 
Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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dr. farr said:
Venus-Venus-Venus: go for it:joyful:!
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I will I wanted to wait until mercury went direct, and gets out of the shadow... In the mean time I'm building in stock.. (I started, before it went Rx)

The wood, I was thinking of getting smaller pieces and making picture magnets.

Does my chart support me doing crafts and selling them?
 
Inline

Inline

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Lion o ness said:
....But I don't feel bad, like in a giving up manner, kinda the opposite..
I'm feeling more like I have completed my assignments, like the jobs done..
Now I'm just kinda keeping busy....
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Sounds like a bit of a mid-life crisis (sorry) with a desire to experience something new, because "you've completed your assignments so far" which seems quite natural right now.

You mentioned that you believe in reincarnation, so do i...we believe therefore, that the soul's work is never done not in this world anyways...so, to feel you've done enough on this plane is very optimistic.

But who really knows? :cool:
 
wilsontc

wilsontc

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Some possible sources of help

Lion,

I will keep this thread open. However, if you do start to dip to "the dark side" here are some sources that members suggest for help outside the Forum:
http://www.suicideprevention.ca/in-crisis-now/thinking-about-suicide/
http://www.cmha.ca/mental-health/find-help/emotional-wellness/
http://www.suicideforum.com/
http://www.takethislife.com/suicide-forums/
http://d2lrevolution.com/no-suicide-zone/?gclid=CJbqx42XprwCFWLHtAodQx4AKw

Wishing you health and happiness,

Tim
 
Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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Inline said:
Sounds like a bit of a mid-life crisis (sorry) with a desire to experience something new, because "you've completed your assignments so far" which seems quite natural right now.

You mentioned that you believe in reincarnation, so do i...we believe therefore, that the soul's work is never done not in this world anyways...so, to feel you've done enough on this plane is very optimistic.

But who really knows? :cool:
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That's fair, most likely accurate.
Yes... I am feeling the need to be out with the old and on with the new.
 
Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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Re: Some possible sources of help

wilsontc said:
Lion,

I will keep this thread open. However, if you do start to dip to "the dark side" here are some sources that members suggest for help outside the Forum:
http://www.suicideprevention.ca/in-crisis-now/thinking-about-suicide/
http://www.cmha.ca/mental-health/find-help/emotional-wellness/
http://www.suicideforum.com/
http://www.takethislife.com/suicide-forums/
http://d2lrevolution.com/no-suicide-zone/?gclid=CJbqx42XprwCFWLHtAodQx4AKw

Wishing you health and happiness,

Tim
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Thank you, but it assure you this isn't about being in a dark place...
I'm thinking the others posters have rephrased It better than my initial post..
"Death" of a old life, (way of life) is a better term...
:happy:
 
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blackberry

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Hello Lion,
It sounds as if you are weak, weary and worn!:pouty:
but not suicidal. and certainly not a pity-party. you are just expressing how you feel at this time and I appreciate your honesty.
Not sure of your age but do you have a special somebody in your life? How long have you been feeling this way? Could it be because of transiting Saturn making square to moon/sun? This transit might be making you feel unloved and sad and a tad depressed.
Take this time to love yourself, do things that make you happy. Sounds as if you are always giving to others which is good but you need to take time to give to yourself also. With the transiting Neptune trine Venus aspect you might think about moving and being around water as it's healing, especially for you with your Pisces AC. Maybe even take up scuba diving or something that you have always wanted to do. Very healing aspect for you, especially regarding your home life.

Blackberry
 
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Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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dr. farr said:
I think your feeelings/outlook at this time is largely due to Neptune transit of your first whole sign house (transit of Pisces)-Neptune (and Pisces too) represent "end of cycles", dissolution of the old, well established, opening the way for the new: I think you are experiencing this dissolution/renovation tide sweeping through your energy field: you might be feeling the more "negative" impact of this, since transiting Neptune has been in square to natal Neptune over the past approx. 15 or so months-however, as transit Neptune passes beyond the transit/orb of square to natal Neptune, this negative impact/sensation will diminish and fade away (note that Neptune moves through signs at a rate of 1 degree every 5 months-except of course when retrograde)-so I think any negative feelings associated with this Neptunian/1st house cycle activation, will pass off in the not to distant future, replaced by insight into new directions for your life...
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Small update:
Well it is a new beginning, I've been working at clearing my debit, and buying my first house..
Which is exactly what I've done.
I'm still in escrow, but escrow will close, next month. Right around my bday. :love:
So this is my present to my self...

It's actually a very big deal for me, I have lived in the same place for the last 16 years...
But I'm really excited..

I'm still feeling, well "left" but I'm working very hard to move ahead...
 
Lion o ness

Lion o ness

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blackberry said:
Hello Lion,
It sounds as if you are weak, weary and worn!:pouty:
but not suicidal. and certainly not a pity-party. you are just expressing how you feel at this time and I appreciate your honesty.
Not sure of your age but do you have a special somebody in your life? How long have you been feeling this way? Could it be because of transiting Saturn making square to moon/sun? This transit might be making you feel unloved and sad and a tad depressed.
Take this time to love yourself, do things that make you happy. Sounds as if you are always giving to others which is good but you need to take time to give to yourself also. With the transiting Neptune trine Venus aspect you might think about moving and being around water as it's healing, especially for you with your Pisces AC. Maybe even take up scuba diving or something that you have always wanted to do. Very healing aspect for you, especially regarding your home life.

Blackberry
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I'm sorry I never saw this comment...
Yeah maybe Saturn is doing a number on me, but what I've notice is Saturn makes me get my butt into gear... Which I'm working on it..
Ironically I'm moving to a beach city, my new house will be about 4 miles from the beach, not super close, but close :kissing:
 
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