I was born with Lilith tightly conjuncted the Ascendant also in the same sign of Mars and Venus (conjunction).
From my experience I dealt with problems in the area of sexuality (acceptance), the feminine self and being present (my image/appearance); in result of me being stood out and isolated. The fact I am and was naturally more feminine then the what soceity expects a male to be I was constantly picked on, harrassed and easily left out. I was pretty wild, full of life and flamboyant growing up, but I was constantly told 'Why you act like a girl?' , 'stop being a sissy', 'boys dont act like that'; I remember my first bully being my 1st grade teacher, he literally tried to pick me apart.
Also I notice now that I learned about this tool (astrology) that many of the people who picked on me bad in the past had something in Virgo (Sun, Moon, etc)..including some family members (my brother, cousins) who had Virgo somewhere in their chart. After gathering all my memories of experiences I looked in my natal chart and notice Lilith right over the Ascendant; I learned about this subject and it made alot of sense 😖. I became much more isolated high school years, I dressed 'normal' during those times but yet no one wanted to sit near me, lost all my friendships, attracted unwanted attention; its like the same problem follow me where ever I went (even when I was intending church years back, the youth was cruel towards me..ugh).
Im now 21, still no friends, still somewhat isolation, problems with relationships and close bonding. The bright side is I learned to not give a flying **** and accept this natural "different" part of my myself I was being denied and that I was denial of, expressing my individuality much more. As I am not perfect every now and then I become self destructive about my existence but I end up getting over it. Also this lead me to come off a bit bitchy from being tired of people's stupid ******** behavior; its like this mapped out my whole life😒..I ask myself If there even a God and if so he hates me...
But yeah, that a little a dealth with..😬😬😁😢