LunartLioness, at the moment you have transiting Saturn opposing your moon, which has an effect on your emotions... sadness, depression or feeling isolated from others are some of the feelings you can have during this transit. Saturn represses, and repressing your feelings as a result keeps you from communicating with others. It can rob you of your self confidence, exaggerating what you see as defects in yourself.
Your 3rd of communication is ruled by both pluto and mars, and being in square your expression of these takes on a see-saw form.
The energies don't combine to make an average, they alternate, and set each other off.
So this in itself is a stop and go way of communicating.
Mars wants to be active and creative, pluto wants to get to the bottom of things by getting to the root cause of the matter and rebuilding from the ashes. Pluto in the 2nd of self-value wants to throw your self confidence to the winds and rebuild it, with the idea of "building it back better".
In the long run, this can be very constructive, but the intermediate process can be painful to you. This energy in fact is visible in many of the comments you wrote on the thread.
Mars in Capricorn works well, and in your chart mars also represents your partners, so the tension will leak over to that area of your life.
Capricorn is a shy sign, so any planet located here will express itself in a timid, under-toned way. But it will get itself across.
Both of these planets are also in easy aspect with Uranus, also in the 3rd, and this gives you a positive channel to work out the see-saw imbalance.
Uranus is also astrology, and naturally you are looking to astrology as a tool to help you.
Moving on, mercury is the general planet of communicating, and it is at the very last degree of its sign, so it hasn't any developmental energy to work towards. It just is, in a static way. It is also in an out of sign square to your ascendent, so the "funnel" the ascendent provides to comunicate to the outside world is a little hampered, and the energy doesn't flow easily. It flows, but in a stilted way.
Add Saturn on ascendent to make for a laid back personal expression. Jupiter is also there, and again these two energies don't combine to make a new energy, they alternate, but in an easy way.
Both Saturn and Jupiter are in close sextile to Venus, again in the 3rd house.
Very positive for expression!
All 3 are also in wide aspect with moon on north node.
Excellent intertwining of energies in your chart!
Your search might last your whole lifetime, and it is your emotional side that will help you work through it. Moon on NN is like a Polar star for you, to guide you.
Recently, with Saturn having transited in opposition you've been pushed to look at this area of your character, nose to the enlarging lens, making you investigate the roots, and after you will soar upwards like Pluto, but you will cyclically return to concentrate on this area, because this is a lifetime goal.
Moon ruling midheaven will instinctively lead you to an expression in terms of career choice.
