MJ82
Well-known member
Hello folks,
I realise I've posted about this before, some months ago, but I don't know where else to turn. In short, I am looking for advice on how to cope with a series of tough transits that I'm really struggling with, and simultaneously. This is not meant as a complaint and I am doing my best to take responsibility and face these challenges i.e. not be victim, but I am finding them incredibly taxing internally and could do with advice and insight into how to work with them successfully.
To quickly summarise, and I've attached a transit (+progressed) chart below, these are the main hard transits I am having now (some are just starting):
T Pluto square (8th house) Moon
T Pluto square (8th house) Mars (starting)
T Pluto semi-square Mercury
T Saturn conjunct (8th house) Pluto
T Saturn conjunct Jupiter
T Saturn square Venus
T Uranus opposite Moon
T Neptune conjunct Mercury
Progressed Moon in scorpio
Most of these transits echo existing aspects or connections in my natal, and I can definitely relate strongly to each of them and their effects.
I can tell you that I feel spiritually in a very bleak, heavy and dark place - like I have never felt before in the 30 years of being here - and furthermore, everything is so much more intense, and my "defences" (energy shielding) feel almost non-existent (something I naturally struggle with at the best of times).
I am finding everyday experiences and social encounters to be very difficult to cope with and yet I know that this convergence of karmic lessons is there for me to grow and mature, so I want to find survival mechanisms to move with the challenges, rather than sink under them.
Concretely, this is proving tricky because I am living in a new city, one I don't like and feel quite alienated from, but that promises new work opportunities in my field. This move has come on the heels of other major life changes which I have dealt with, but in order to take advantage of these new opportunities, it requires me to step WAY out of my comfort zone, and while I have moments of being ready and willing, most of the time it feels near impossible to face because of how I am feeling psychologically and emotionally. I feel totally stripped down - naked almost - and feel a great heaviness and darkness over me which makes me feel close to drowning at times. My thoughts are increasingly dark and I feel mentally ill-at-ease, in a way I never am usually.
I know a lot of this will pass, and I don't really know what I'm looking for, but any insights on how to work with these transits (and encouraging stories from others!) would be very much appreciated...
I realise I've posted about this before, some months ago, but I don't know where else to turn. In short, I am looking for advice on how to cope with a series of tough transits that I'm really struggling with, and simultaneously. This is not meant as a complaint and I am doing my best to take responsibility and face these challenges i.e. not be victim, but I am finding them incredibly taxing internally and could do with advice and insight into how to work with them successfully.
To quickly summarise, and I've attached a transit (+progressed) chart below, these are the main hard transits I am having now (some are just starting):
T Pluto square (8th house) Moon
T Pluto square (8th house) Mars (starting)
T Pluto semi-square Mercury
T Saturn conjunct (8th house) Pluto
T Saturn conjunct Jupiter
T Saturn square Venus
T Uranus opposite Moon
T Neptune conjunct Mercury
Progressed Moon in scorpio
Most of these transits echo existing aspects or connections in my natal, and I can definitely relate strongly to each of them and their effects.
I can tell you that I feel spiritually in a very bleak, heavy and dark place - like I have never felt before in the 30 years of being here - and furthermore, everything is so much more intense, and my "defences" (energy shielding) feel almost non-existent (something I naturally struggle with at the best of times).
I am finding everyday experiences and social encounters to be very difficult to cope with and yet I know that this convergence of karmic lessons is there for me to grow and mature, so I want to find survival mechanisms to move with the challenges, rather than sink under them.
Concretely, this is proving tricky because I am living in a new city, one I don't like and feel quite alienated from, but that promises new work opportunities in my field. This move has come on the heels of other major life changes which I have dealt with, but in order to take advantage of these new opportunities, it requires me to step WAY out of my comfort zone, and while I have moments of being ready and willing, most of the time it feels near impossible to face because of how I am feeling psychologically and emotionally. I feel totally stripped down - naked almost - and feel a great heaviness and darkness over me which makes me feel close to drowning at times. My thoughts are increasingly dark and I feel mentally ill-at-ease, in a way I never am usually.
I know a lot of this will pass, and I don't really know what I'm looking for, but any insights on how to work with these transits (and encouraging stories from others!) would be very much appreciated...