People naturally distrust or gossip about me?

So, I thought I could use a hand in understanding how for seemingly 5 years in my life now I've been heavily distrusted, gossiped about, made a folly of since I was 15, with extremely distant pain from family, lacking any existence feeling at all, extremely painful suicidal feeling, people constantly manipulating and cutting me down, awesome friends turning into enemies and distrusting me.

At times, I just felt like the world just hated me to hell, I've watched amazing friends turn into mass manipulators, I've had my family distrust me, I've had my lover distrust me of my life, I've had hundreds gossip over me and manipulate me in sake of their own, and to be honest, I've never really won but been a kickaround and scapegoatee for people to blame, criminalize and cut down and think I'm a liar and a fake.

You might want to post a chart so people can look at it and help you

Posted it.

personally i think you are going to be fine this year. theres only minor challenges in terms of transits.

this year you might become more romantic, but also dispersed in perception.

http://www.thefutureminders.com/Uranus-transits/uranus-square-sun.cfm

people might be snappy untill the end of february

you are exacly 1 month younger than me
i also have experienced very similar situations to yours
i think people underestimate the jupiter placement
people with jupiter in scorpio are manipulative assholes, while we(libra jupiter) just try to be nice
also transit pluto sun conjunction in 10th house got in into trouble for sure, isnt it better now ?

Every time I see your chart, it has a different rising.

me or the OP? bc i also posted few charts