BlackLioness87
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Dear astrologers, I need some advice regarding my relationship with my three year-old son.
The days before and after his birth I experienced very difficult and traumatic situations. I almost had a cardiac arrest after "delivery", in fact, I had to stay on ICU for a week. In brief, the transits of one of the toughest moments of my whole life became the synastry between me and my son.
My baby was on my arms for the first time when he was 9 days old. First thing I noticed was that he was a very demanding baby, it was very difficult to appease him. I had to struggle those first days with him at the hospital. He was healthy but I was still recovering. He was very impatient and I couldn't delay feeding him, I had to feed him right away or he would refuse to eat. Most people can't imagine a 9 days baby punching his mother for not breastfeeding him right away. Many mothers and nurses at the hospital said I wasn't a good mother, very few persons supported me. My son was the most fussy baby of the hypertensive disorders ward of the hospital and to everybody's eyes it was all my fault.
So, my son is strong-willed and reckless, impatient and anxious since he was born. I go from being permissive to being too tough, his father acts similarly. There are times when we both do our best to make things work, he really is behaving better but... when I'm under bad transits my patience runs out very easily. Sometimes I think it would be better if I left him.
His Jupiter is conjunct my Mars in Leo by 6'. His nemesis is on my Mars and my nemesis on his Venus. We have a loose nessus opposite nessus. Chiron trine moon both ways. His chiron is on my DSC, my Saturn opposes his Sun. It seems we both have serious lessons to learn, I wonder how much time it will take us. I don't want to become a harmful influence in my son's life.
I would appreciate any insight and thoughts about any of these charts. Namaste.
The days before and after his birth I experienced very difficult and traumatic situations. I almost had a cardiac arrest after "delivery", in fact, I had to stay on ICU for a week. In brief, the transits of one of the toughest moments of my whole life became the synastry between me and my son.
My baby was on my arms for the first time when he was 9 days old. First thing I noticed was that he was a very demanding baby, it was very difficult to appease him. I had to struggle those first days with him at the hospital. He was healthy but I was still recovering. He was very impatient and I couldn't delay feeding him, I had to feed him right away or he would refuse to eat. Most people can't imagine a 9 days baby punching his mother for not breastfeeding him right away. Many mothers and nurses at the hospital said I wasn't a good mother, very few persons supported me. My son was the most fussy baby of the hypertensive disorders ward of the hospital and to everybody's eyes it was all my fault.
So, my son is strong-willed and reckless, impatient and anxious since he was born. I go from being permissive to being too tough, his father acts similarly. There are times when we both do our best to make things work, he really is behaving better but... when I'm under bad transits my patience runs out very easily. Sometimes I think it would be better if I left him.
His Jupiter is conjunct my Mars in Leo by 6'. His nemesis is on my Mars and my nemesis on his Venus. We have a loose nessus opposite nessus. Chiron trine moon both ways. His chiron is on my DSC, my Saturn opposes his Sun. It seems we both have serious lessons to learn, I wonder how much time it will take us. I don't want to become a harmful influence in my son's life.
I would appreciate any insight and thoughts about any of these charts. Namaste.