Not at all. In fact, I was more interested in the fact that this personality of yours acquired a precision that you've never really articulated before, especially when you just came along. As one on the outside looking in, it looks like an evolution to me. What was the catalyst?
I can satiate my fix for demons elsewhere. Interesting that you think that's the only reason why I responded.
I honestly can't say if this is a normal course for everyone or not, but I do know things are rapidly transforming for me. And I grew up depression, anxious(since as far back as I can remember which is 4 yrs old), eventually I started to feel weak and lost and there was a lot of darkness
Boringly, my life has very much been about discovering my power and realizing that right now, more than ever, I need to start using it. And as much as you may despise newageism, 'cocreating' my reality. I don't fully understand the term, but I enjoy because I believe, without looking it up, that it acknowledges our ability to exert power over the course of our lives from the present on and referencing the past as a creative force, but also acknowledging that there is a collective force at play which is important to me
I know I'm being called right now to embrace all my power. And believe me, this is coming from someone who believed she had so little power it wasn't even worth it to put any effort into anything, even things i may have desired like writing
Yes this is very new because I realize just like magic, reality doesn't happen to us, but we happen to reality. And I'm still in the trial period, I'll admit, but I feel hopeful. And that's because I know that it really is all in my power
And I cannot deny, there have been so many positive messages from people around me and from the universe in general, chance meetings and all, all that point me to something possibly incorporeal or the universe on my side and I can't deny that. I've had so many positive forces come into my life and I know that's for a reason and I can't just leave them unattended, I can't just squander them
I believe some people may see me as insane, but I know I'm not. I call myself insane jokingly. But I've just realized that the reality we've been served in conventional thought is ********. I mean what rational thinker could actually come to the conclusion that any one individual, even people in 'high academic authority' can say with certainty what exists and what doesn't? No one can...what's true and what isn't. None of us know
The truth is, we're left here to find our own power in our minds, in our souls, in our hearts, and of course with any aid from spiritual guides which I hear we all have
I can also feel a magic in my life, tho that's hard to describe. It's mostly in the bounds of luck and positive forces coming in right when I need them
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So in short, this is new for me. It's been with the help of some good people understanding that I'm a very powerful being. I'm beginning to realize that. All my anxieties I've had throughout my life were all...just delusion. In truth, the power knows no bounds
I don't know what's to come next, but I'm a pretty chaotic person still