Ok, thanks, I know this is like self torture, but it has been on my mind. I felt the question was always there -once I found out, but when I was talking with my husband about it, and I said "I feel like making a horary on this" he agreed then I said what time is it now? I looked at it with the suggestions above. I am led to the moon re the death, and mars re the heath. The moon is in the 8th. (uranus is also retrograding back in the 8th, but I don't know if that even counts I keep getting led to it ) The moon is separating trine merc square the asc. The asc is 4 Leo so maybee this is simply a question too early asking, seeing that it is early in the sign. The moon is appling a trine to the sun. ok now I am getting maybee too much info? As far as Mars goes its strong in Scorpio, its separing from a sextile to Saturn which is at the exact cusp of the 3rd. The main answer may be this saturn which is separating from a square to venus in the 5th house. I don't know because it is also appling to a sextile to the sun? Maybee I will post this chart in the questions area, because I am going around in circles. Maybee it is really best left unasked. MCamery (mama of three)