I’m seriously tired to being treated like ****, and i want to die.

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TheeSinister1

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Me and that guy, i found out he ghosted me so idgaf, he was the starter to me wanting to die. I have been showing a poker face for 10 years and idc, i hate being a woman of color, because ppl treat us like ****. and i wanna die. i am tired of living, for these reasons and i wrote this in reddit:

I don’t wanna live anymore... tired of this treacherous life

It seems like all guys in Europe just want skinny white women. I hate being a black woman, even tho i am mixed with cuban and danish (my mother is biracial) . I want to bleach my skin. I am dead ***, or i wanna die. All i do is hear people talk **** about me how jy real dad passed 11 years ago and that im just a mommys or daddys girl. then i just hold it in, then keep it in. The type of men i like are shallow (EU men) and Canadian and american men are emotionally and verbally abusive i just cant take it anymore i spent the whole decade being treated like **** i just wanna die and go to my dad that died in 2008. I am fed up and tired of people talkin **** about me because i act like nothing is wrong, yet i take it in for years. I grew up seeing my mom get abused by her 3rd husband, who was just an ******* to me and my little sister thats 19. i am 22. and im tired of seeing this man disrespect my family. i feel like its my time to go.

This is serious, I am tired of everyone, I am tired of pretending and living a lie and acting like my life is a movie when it’s a nightmare. i wanna die, at least i can be at peace with my real father aka moms 1st hubby, and not worry about other people talking **** or ghosting me. All i ever wanted was true love, and speaking to a psychic telling me telling me i wont find true love until 2021. Great, other men and other heartbreaks. I hate everyone. I hate my life. I hate that the “God” i am supposed to believe in, took my father from me and giving me a shitty life. I hate my life, i am crying right now am i typing this. FML

I have ambitions like pt work and school to look forward to, but thats what everyone does. Tbh i dont think i have a bright future ahead of me. Life ****in ***** tbhhh. I think i was made on earth to fail, I always really wanted kids, but i never had any. FML.

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wilsontc

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Please get help outside the Forum, to Sinister

Sinister,

This is NOT a suicide counseling station, it does not pretend to be, it does not have the right people, it is not staffed appropriately, it simply doesn't have the ability to give you the help you need. For that reason, the sooner you look AWAY from this forum, the sooner you can look for help in an area where people are going to give you the help you need.

But it CAN point you in the right direction. Our Forum members suggest going to these sites:
http://www.suicideprevention.ca/in-crisis-now/thinking-about-suicide/
http://www.cmha.ca/mental-health/find-help/emotional-wellness/
http://www.suicideforum.com/
http://www.takethislife.com/suicide-forums/
http://d2lrevolution.com/no-suicide-zone/?gclid=CJbqx42XprwCFWLHtAodQx4AKw

In accordance with Forum rules, I'm locking this thread down against further postings.

Locking down,

Tim
 
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