hello everyone,
havent been here for a while....
i am coming back with a question which is very important to me.
it feels like im stuck in life. i guess my Saturn Return hasnt finished yet.
I feel restricted still but not as much as i was in the last 2 years... I cant finish projects, things, i feel like im wasting my time. I cant make any decisions, they fade away- i am not a decisive person- in my life and at work. Im always the second or the third and i always need to 'ask for permission'.
I feel i cant move on fast, many people say its better now to stay 'inside' when it comes to emotions, that its better not to show off, be external.
What do you think about my chart for now? I ve been single for the last 3 years. I started to think im kinda mentally handicapped for not being able even to attract a guy.
Many things happened this year as well but its i stil feel stuck. I do not live only for my own, only for myself. I cut many people off which is cool- because many of my good friends from the past have been vampires, but it feels like my family also drains me a bit. Instead of me the attention is usually put elsewhere. I still need to fight for attention in my family as i would be a child.
Maybe its the problem with my character or personality and the result is the same as if i cant find any man ? No attention, no interest?
Could you review my chart for the next 6 onths please and see if sth changes? It feels like whenever i made a decision in the last 2-3 years it was a bad decision. People accuse me of cutting them off- but me, i just dont wanna be their mental and emotional sponge again.
im happy that i have a job, a family, a flat. Its for now during pandemics very important. I wrk from home. I feel so alone.
havent been here for a while....
i am coming back with a question which is very important to me.
it feels like im stuck in life. i guess my Saturn Return hasnt finished yet.
I feel restricted still but not as much as i was in the last 2 years... I cant finish projects, things, i feel like im wasting my time. I cant make any decisions, they fade away- i am not a decisive person- in my life and at work. Im always the second or the third and i always need to 'ask for permission'.
I feel i cant move on fast, many people say its better now to stay 'inside' when it comes to emotions, that its better not to show off, be external.
What do you think about my chart for now? I ve been single for the last 3 years. I started to think im kinda mentally handicapped for not being able even to attract a guy.
Many things happened this year as well but its i stil feel stuck. I do not live only for my own, only for myself. I cut many people off which is cool- because many of my good friends from the past have been vampires, but it feels like my family also drains me a bit. Instead of me the attention is usually put elsewhere. I still need to fight for attention in my family as i would be a child.
Maybe its the problem with my character or personality and the result is the same as if i cant find any man ? No attention, no interest?
Could you review my chart for the next 6 onths please and see if sth changes? It feels like whenever i made a decision in the last 2-3 years it was a bad decision. People accuse me of cutting them off- but me, i just dont wanna be their mental and emotional sponge again.
im happy that i have a job, a family, a flat. Its for now during pandemics very important. I wrk from home. I feel so alone.
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