i'm lost.if you can tell me something or show me a way to go i'll thank you

miquar said:

Hi ipukeflowers. I'm a bit tired to write very much now, but the needs of the Libran personal planets will be very different to the Moon in Scorpio conjunct Pluto and closely sextile Neptune. Both need relationship, but different kinds, and it would be worth you looking into the basic differences between these signs. What also perhaps adds to your difficulties is the squares from the Libra stellium to Saturn.

It could be that the idealism of Libra is finding it difficult to come to terms with the limitations of Saturn and the primitive passion of Scorpio. It seems from what you said that you don't meet the world in a way typical of Jupiter rising in Leo, as this often imbues confidence. But perhaps it gives you a sense of the world being a place (Ascendant) where being very special is the way to be (Jupiter/Leo), and maybe your inhibitions (Saturn squares to stellium) and intense feeling responses (Moon in Scorpio conjunct Pluto) are generating to much anxiety for you to meet the world on these terms. So maybe Jupiter rising in Leo just makes you more self-conscious at the moment.

Things are sure to gradually improve with age. You've just had your Saturn square and now transiting Saturn is hovering around the Libra stellium. The depression and anxiety will hopefully ease when transiting Saturn moves into early Scorpio. Then when it conjuncts the Moon Pluto conjunction there will be opportunities on some level to make that passionate yet sensitive feeling nature of yours more a concrete part of your world.

If you want to respond to this initial look at your chart, I'm happy to try to say more if you think it might be helpful.

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luna7 said:

[FONT=&quot]Your pseudonym speaks volumes about how you feel about yourself right now: that even beauty turns rotten within you. I have a brother who has that Libran / scorpio energy within – and I’ve seen how he battles with the raw truths & desires of scorpio vs the Libran need for diplomacy and nicety. It is not an easy combination. I cant help but wonder about the family home atmosphere – what you may have soaked up there? What the undercurrents were? Even the most ordinary families have unspoken myths. I’m not implying that family life is/was bad, but as a sensitive being your antennae work overtime – sensing all that is going on around you…..and then trying to make sense of it. It can be exhausting. Your Leo ascendant can manifest in lots of ways: as “look at me, look at me” or as a dignified presence, confident in its right to be here. As with all ascendants, it is an attempt to integrate all that you are feeling on the inside into what is, hopefully, a coherent way of meeting the world each day. Are you unable to find work or are you unclear about what you’d like to do? I’m wondering whether a “work-type” friendship would be easier for you at the moment – some companionship, but with no sense that it has to fullfill all the other criteria. What are your interests? Hobbies? Are you into nature or science? Even part- time work gets you out, talking to people. Librans do need other people to reflect back – just be discerning about whose version of yourself you take on. The prog Moon has been in your 1st house since mid 2010. It can represent an uncertain time – feel like something is happening, but uncertain what it is. As it enters your 2nd house, it would be good to concretise something. Take on some commitments; “you are probably stronger than you think you are” (Forrest)
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retinoid said:

Your south node is conjunct your jupiter in the first house making the Jupiter bad. Which is very difficult for you because you may feel like you can express yourself and be friendly and everyone will like you, but when you make the effort it just doesn't turn out positively. Health may be negatively affected as well and you may gain weight especially in later years. People may see you as arrogant. People may just not 'get' you. You are fortunate in the sense that you CAN be alone though. Writing could be a good thing for you but you may not be able to make a career out of it. You could have racing thoughts and mood swings and may have thoughts of extreme natures (death for instance). You may be good as a doctor and doing something to help other people. You could have issues from past lives of withdrawing from society perhaps through drug use for instance and neglecting your health. A relationship will help you and you will find that a when you are working towards something (or just receiving a pay check) will help you out immensely mentally. Not being abrasive with people will help you make and keep friends.

Astrology doesn't dictate things in my opinion...it just presents issues for us to live through. The planets are lords of karma and getting through the challenges helps us deal with it...also remember at your age, a lot of people are going through similar issues (I am as well)...so don't feel like it is forever.

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