UraSatVen1029
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My Ascendant is 22 Sagittarius, so I had transiting Pluto conjunct my Ascendant about 15 years ago. My 2nd House cusp is 29 Capricorn, so Pluto's still got another 5 years or so of transiting my 1st House. The growth has been amazing this entire time, and I have a much better understanding of myself. It can help you with spirituality and creativity too, because you get really interested in mysteries, secrets and introspective things. It also brings out your dark, catty side. ;-D With your strong Scorpio influence, I imagine transiting Pluto in the 1st will feel very comfortable for you, once you get used to it.
You're lucky that you have strong 10th and 1st Houses to balance those contradictions out. My Ascendant ruler is in the 12th, Pluto and Saturn are conjunct in my 10th, and my Sun/Mercury conjunction is in Pisces, so I have more "hide" than "show." I haven't found a truly effective way to express what I want to express.
One other thing I want to mention: watch out for medical malpractice! You have a wide orb on your Sun/Mercury-square-Neptune (mine was only 7') but it can still cause serious issues with fraud and deception (Neptune) afflicting your vitality (Sun) especially if it involves the mind or communication errors (Mercury). That aspect has manifested for me in a variety of ways but the health problems and resulting malpractice were the worst. So requests paper copies of any serious medical records, do your own research, get second opinions and just generally be careful.
I've had a similar problem with Mars. My Mars is almost 7 degrees from a Jupiter trine and otherwise sitting by itself in Aries in my 4th, and it's my 4th House ruler. So I have a really hard time connecting Mars to any other area of my life. It's like my Mars is absent sometimes. I have a hard time sustaining interest in my passions and when I get angry I usually rage alone.
Like you said, it's important to try and find positive outlets for any energy in a chart, especially darker energies like Pluto, Mars and Saturn. But I think the biggest problem with being misunderstood is that you can't control other people. They see what they see, not what you show them. So you can be an open book all you want and they'll still misinterpret what they read, if they bother to read you at all. What helps me handle that is reminding myself that no one is obligated to read me, but the people who do are capable of a profound connection. The handful of people who can figure me out have formed bonds with me that are insanely beautiful and deep in a way that defies description.
Transit pluto in 1st house & conjunct ascendant for me was really just very similar to how I handled being depressed and introspective my whole life basically-- except this time it was more intense and very direct. Very "in-your-face" kind of thing and It just felt like if I still kept resisting it was really going to kill me lol. Changes are more evident now, especially how I view the outside world now. Since Cap rules 10th house, it was really the time for me to be more clear with my true and real goals that I had ever since I was a little girl, it was like resurrecting a childhood dream I buried within me for so many years now. Saturn trines my North Node by 1 degree or less. I hope what I'm praying for is just in line with soul progress and my soul path
You're right... why didn't I think of that earlier. We really can't control what other people will see in ourselves. We all have different perspectives, views and etc. What's more important is really just the acceptance of your own self and being at peace with it... Unfortunately, I have yet to find one person who can really understand me. I know it sounds really pessimistic and bad to say that not even my family is able to understand what I really am and what I really want, but it is true. I can't wait though, to meet these beautiful people
My Saturn is in Aries at 29 degrees. Man. Ruled by Mars, which btw, is lacking and weak in my natal chart. I hope his trine with North Node can still help me in this lifetime.