Saturn has returned and he is KICKING MY BUTT..I'm so lost. Any insight?

I quit my job out of the blue and I'm more unsure now that I ever have been. My dad died last year and I feel like I've lost my grounding in life. Married in a very karmic relationship with 3 kids. I just fell in love with astrology but it am quickly getting lost. Lol my chart👇

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