I need to feel that I can bare my soul and I am prepared to give my all to my partner.
so true..
Just like PisceanPallas, I too need to feel that strong bond. I guess that the problem is - what is strong for somebody else, might not be strong for me...
I need to feel secure. When in love, I feel like walking through a blue flame, my every atom intertwined with the other person's, breathing each other in and out.. Most people would call it possessiveness.. to me it's more like - belonging...
I try to control my emotions at all times, to keep them within. They're too much for me to handle sometimes, so I can only imagine what it would be like for others. Sometimes I'm honestly scared to show the people I love just how much I feel for them, because I believe they'd think I'm crazy. Most of my friends thought of me as cold and distant before getting to know me better.
When it comes to relationships, romantic or otherwise, I tend to make 'assessments' based on the things people say, or don't say, do or don't do. I ask a lot of questions. Sometimes, people get surprised, because I don't beat around the bush when I'm interested in knowing more about them. People's behavior in this kind of situations speaks volumes, even avoiding an answer is an answer. I guess getting to know the person is just like solving some mystery, or putting together a jigsaw puzzle. It's the discovery of the person itself that I'm particularly keen on. Once I find I'm being 'explored' as well, the whole experience enhances.
I seem to notice everything, in my surroundings and the people around me. This can be a blessing and a curse, especially in a relationship. Sensing even the smallest of change either in one's partner or in the dynamics of the relationship isn't always a good thing...
Being too perceptive about people or the world around you can sometimes leave you feeling lonely. That's the 'depressive' you've mentioned. So what? All the people occasionally feel like that... Well, the problem is - whatever the others feel, you feel ten times stronger, or so it seems to you. Some people can't really relate to that.
Having a Leo Sun, I can accumulate and produce an unimaginable amount of anger. It's incredible.
Since Pluto is power, having it in the 1st house and in the hands of a Fire-Sun sign, could be a disaster. But a Libra Pluto is righteous. You wouldn't believe how much analyzing and weighing the arguments goes through my head when having a discussion or arguing with somebody, or just how many times I will choose not to react to something being said or done, because I know my response would be numerous times harsher than what it should be. One thing's for sure - if you're having an argument with a Moon conjunct Libra Pluto person, and they 'hit the spot', you should know that the 'spot' was discovered much, much earlier, and that, in their mind, you've deserved it.
Honesty and goodness of heart is what I value most in people. Deceit, lying and betrayal can never be tolerated. Ever. These are the things that will make the 'righteous' Pluto blind, and within a Leo Sun cherishing loyalty, instigate what PisceanPallas called:
. Or a small tsunami.