Ugh, I know I've been posting a lot lately, I'm sorry. I'm just so stressed. I don't know what to do.
I know this is long, but if you could take the time to read it and try to help me I'd honestly appreciate any help you can give me.
Okay, so tomorrow I start college. The plan is to become a vet. I wouldn't say it's my dream or anything, but it's something I've stuck to since I was younger. But, here's the thing: it's not what I want, and I'm not sure that I ever truly wanted it. I know I love animals, I'd love to work with them if all of my other options were gone, but I'm not sure if it's what I truly want. I believe that I've clung onto the idea of being a vet because of financial security. I grew up in an environment where money was very scarce; at one point 7 of us (4 kids, 3 grown woman- my mum, my auntie and my grandma) were living in the same house, divided into two bedrooms. So I've always been terrified that I won't produce enough income for my own kids, I really want a lot better for them than what I had.
So, keeping that in mind, you can imagine how tough it may be for me trying to go for my true dream. My true dream is unreliable in all the ways possible. I want to be a singer in a band, I crave it so badly that it makes me quite emotional just thinking about it. I've always been inclined to creative hobbies like writing (stories, songs, poems) and drawing but singing was something my heart was into, but I've lacked belief in myself. I've never dared to believe that I could be successful pursuing a career in singing up until this year. It's something I've always fantasized about, but I believed I'd never be lucky enough to have that kind of life. But this year I'm really starting to have confidence in myself, and I really believe in my dream.
So, what I'm asking is this: am I doing the right thing in going to college tomorrow and pursuing a career in animal care? Or do I actually have a chance of being a successful singer someday?
I have some positive signs in my chart that support the singing career, but it's the (almost) empty southern hemisphere that makes me doubt. I feel that Venus in the 2nd is the strong point in my chart for this kind of thing. My POF is along side Venus (not conjunct) and has nothing but easy flow aspects to various different planets and the MC.
I know this is long, but if you could take the time to read it and try to help me I'd honestly appreciate any help you can give me.
Okay, so tomorrow I start college. The plan is to become a vet. I wouldn't say it's my dream or anything, but it's something I've stuck to since I was younger. But, here's the thing: it's not what I want, and I'm not sure that I ever truly wanted it. I know I love animals, I'd love to work with them if all of my other options were gone, but I'm not sure if it's what I truly want. I believe that I've clung onto the idea of being a vet because of financial security. I grew up in an environment where money was very scarce; at one point 7 of us (4 kids, 3 grown woman- my mum, my auntie and my grandma) were living in the same house, divided into two bedrooms. So I've always been terrified that I won't produce enough income for my own kids, I really want a lot better for them than what I had.
So, keeping that in mind, you can imagine how tough it may be for me trying to go for my true dream. My true dream is unreliable in all the ways possible. I want to be a singer in a band, I crave it so badly that it makes me quite emotional just thinking about it. I've always been inclined to creative hobbies like writing (stories, songs, poems) and drawing but singing was something my heart was into, but I've lacked belief in myself. I've never dared to believe that I could be successful pursuing a career in singing up until this year. It's something I've always fantasized about, but I believed I'd never be lucky enough to have that kind of life. But this year I'm really starting to have confidence in myself, and I really believe in my dream.
So, what I'm asking is this: am I doing the right thing in going to college tomorrow and pursuing a career in animal care? Or do I actually have a chance of being a successful singer someday?
I have some positive signs in my chart that support the singing career, but it's the (almost) empty southern hemisphere that makes me doubt. I feel that Venus in the 2nd is the strong point in my chart for this kind of thing. My POF is along side Venus (not conjunct) and has nothing but easy flow aspects to various different planets and the MC.
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