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Look at how you worded this statement——“I have never been loved or cared for…”
That is incorrect….I am sorry, but that is not true. People have loved you and do love you.
What can you do to be able to recognise that love and caring and to be able to feel it and accept it and express it yourself? That is the question I see when I look at this chart.
Your chart is a Bowl pattern, with everything held within the rim of the Cancer/Capricorn axis, and all falling below the horizon. You keep things bottled up tight, bubbling below the surface, but held back and internalised.
Venus is how we express love and accept love and caring. Your Venus is exalted in Libra in the 4th. That is a good start and tells me you can learn to process those feelings and accept them at some point.
Your Venus does not make many aspects to your other planets. There is a minor aspect to Mars, a semi-sextile. So you can access those feelings of love through your Virgo Mars, —so by being of service to others, helping them and putting your energy into their needs. And also by connecting romantically.
But Venus is not making major aspects to your other planets and that puts a tremendous pressure upon your need for and feelings about love.
Here is an excerpt as an example:
When a planet is unaspected in a chart, it is a kind of unconscious pocket in the psyche. It is a drive or impulse which does not really relate to anything else in the person’s life. Often he doesn’t even know it’s there, until it is triggered by a transit or progression or by something in someone else’s chart. It is though there is a god who has no ordinary outlet in the life of the individual, so that it cannot accommodate itself to external life in a gradual way. It remains primordial and unpolished, full of tremendous energy which has no outlet. It just sits there and builds up steam. An unaspected planet is very raw and archaic. It has no social graces, but behaves as though it has just been let out of prison. Often there is a kind of blank space, and the individual is sometimes very ignorant of that side of himself until it erupts.
An unaspected Venus which erupts may plunge the person into compulsive erotic or emotional states, but eventually these can be accommodated into the life. Liz Greene says, “An unaspected planet is likely to reflect a complex that is very far away from consciousness – at least initially. That is because it does not have any easy – natural routes for integration into consciousness, which is what aspects to the personal planets provide. When deeply unconscious points appear in the chart, they tend to have a very archaic and mythic quality when they are finally triggered.” In other words, the situation is believed to confer difficulty in expressing some of the planet’s qualities. But these individuals do have a rather peculiar propensity for attracting partners who embody the unaspected planet.
https://theastrologyplacemembership.com/2015/07/the-unaspected-planet/
So with an Unaspected Venus and a Bowl chart which is hidden below the horizon, I think it is hard for you to realise or understand that your ARE LOVED.
You are about to be hit by a powerful transit which may be an emotional breakthrough for you. Your Moon, the ruler of your chart, is conjunct Pluto in your 5th house of Love and Creativity.
Uranus is in Taurus, making an opposition to your Pluto. Soon it will be opposing your Moon as well. And transiting Saturn will be squaring your Moon/Pluto from the 8th of Intimacy, while this happens.
So these transits will be opening up your emotional body to feelings and epiphanies that you have ignored or been blind to previously.
So once again I want to say to you—you are wrong when you say no one has ever loved you or cared for you…..that is not true. That is your own shortcomings and feelings of insecurity crying out and blocking out those whom do love you.
You say you have tried counselling but no one gets it. You need to keep trying. You need to reach out again and find someone who can help you connect to your Venus, to your own love language, to your own self expression, to your own heart.
It may take a spiritual healer or a shaman or a nutritionist or a pastor or a new lover or a family member that wants to make peace with you….or a combination of the above.