Thank you both for answering. I somehow never was able to keep any friendships for longer than a few years and now, living on my Pluto line I am feeling isolated by other people which makes my depression worse.
katydid, I do not consider myself very artistic or creative. I study Communications and before that got a degree in Business. I had a dream once of releasing my own song and music video, but I never met anyone remotely interested in art for it to come true, so I no longer dream about that. Besides, I suck at singing.
Dubyadude1986, yes, I have a hard time letting go of all things "known". Yet I wanted to do it and hence I came to study here. I wish I knew astrocartography back then, so I could chose another place. People here are constantly ignoring me like I am invisible.
Well, Virgo rising, Sun in the 12th - you prefer to go unnoticed. You probably fear getting hurt (emotionally), making mistakes and then being criticized. Which means you would thrive in a quiet environment where there's not much competition or any kind of self-presentation skills required, where you just can blend with the background or the furniture and work quietly and efficiently behind the scenes. Anything else will cause you stress and your typical reaction to stress is to withdraw and go into overthinking. There may also be a lack of focus.Hello, I suffer from depression since my teens and have anxiety since a few years that started causing me panic attacks. I tried everything from prayers and meditation to sport and diet but only meds helped me in the past. I tried SAM-e, thinking I do not produce enough of it, but I am not sure it helped me so I am starting Paxil. Are mental health issues visible on my chart:
I really hate my Virgo ASC, how can I destroy it, e.g. diminish its influence on my life? Is there a way for cutting the influence of some signs and planets on our lives or at least getting over them?
True, I like peace but at the same time I have longing for appearing on TV, being a TV host or acting in a music video.
I really hate my Virgo ASC, how can I destroy it, e.g. diminish its influence on my life?
I really hate my Virgo ASC, how can I destroy it, e.g. diminish its influence on my life? Is there a way for cutting the influence of some signs and planets on our lives or at least getting over them?
Hello. This is Virgo Ascendant speaking to you:
Why do you hate me so and want to diminish and destroy me ?
I'm here to help you; to give you a realistic lens through which to view the world rather than only through imagination, emotions and fantasies that could take over control. There's need for some sort of nitty-gritty reality to make them effective. I can make whatever you visualise real for you if you use my qualities as they are intended to be used instead of discarding them as useless. I can't help being logical and rational; it's my nature. Is it in yours? I can be a perfect machine that sieves and sorts your imagination into a working logic and serves you for the full 100%. Yet I can only do this when you are willing to press the right buttons that will enable me to work for you to work for yourself. Together we can accomplish so much.
Why don't you hate your imagination and fantasy instead of me? What do they offer you that I can't......and vice versa too?
O.K. So as far as I can observe, you can show an impulsive and
compulsive obsessional side to you. Do you have also bi-polar tendencies and/or be inclined to see the cup half empty instead of half-filled? I could straighten that out with my rationalisation that is able to perceive circumstances from a more accurately defining perspective. I'm good at that, even if modesty prevents me from admitting it.
True, I like peace but at the same time I have longing for appearing on TV, being a TV host or acting in a music video
So; is that an artistic dream or something realistic we can work upon? Let's do it. The worst that can happen is that we'll fall flat on your face because you don't try and/or consider yourself good enough to give your all. There has to be sufficient belief and self confidence to act upon for me to make something work. Their nature can be a pain in my realistic eye at times, yet they do have and make a point. I do seem to have a very good friend in power of will that can be quite determined to go all the way when it puts its mind to it.
Well; I've put my case for my own defence. I can't do more than that. I hope you can find me somewhere in a corner of yourself and make use of my positive talents.
Sincerely
Ascendant.
The chart shows how you are wired, your natural disposition. You are not going to change that and really don't have to. But what you have to do is letting go of unrealistic expectations and comparing yourself to others with a totally different mental makeup. I know it's difficult with that kind of ASC in a society that value extrovert qualities more than introvert qualities. Virgo has a tendency for perfection. So if you really have to do things you naturally wouldn't like to do then make sure that you are at least well prepared and with a plan (or plan b).I really hate my Virgo ASC, how can I destroy it, e.g. diminish its influence on my life? Is there a way for cutting the influence of some signs and planets on our lives or at least getting over them?
True, I like peace but at the same time I have longing for appearing on TV, being a TV host or acting in a music video.
But before there were physical symptoms there was something else. That's what you have to find out and work with or else you'll cure one symptom and immediately get another new symptom. Those symptoms (physical and emotional) are all just indicators of your misalignment with self.Thanks. The SSRI I started taking some days ago is giving me strange symptoms like bleeding. I think I will quit it and try natural supplements like SAM-e and L-theanine. I hope that it will help, as nothing else I tried helped me with my panic attacks and depression. No one has fond the reason why I get panic attacks, I think it might be an overactive amygdala.
I was born in 1988 and I think the next Saturn return is due in Feb 2017.
I used this calculator: http://www.astrocal.co.uk/saturn-return-calculator/
Not sure if you mean this:
http://oi66.tinypic.com/ajosa8.jpg
Sorry for not providing all my info, I just had bad experienced on another forum.
I have stopped the antidepressant as I got bleeding and I read they are quite dangerous. Will try with meditation, herbs like St. John's wort, green tea and some benzo only in the case of a panic attack.
Not sure if you mean this:
http://oi66.tinypic.com/ajosa8.jpg
Sorry for not providing all my info, I just had bad experienced on another forum.
I have stopped the antidepressant as I got bleeding and I read they are quite dangerous. Will try with meditation, herbs like St. John's wort, green tea and some benzo only in the case of a panic attack.
Hello, I suffer from depression since my teens and have anxiety since a few years that started causing me panic attacks. I tried everything from prayers and meditation to sport and diet but only meds helped me in the past.