I thank you so much for your response and for the time you invested!
On the one hand it looks terrible, on the other not really.
Yes, last year, I met someone and we had almost an year a relationship, we spent every evening together (huge mistake!). But I think, this is the person, because of who I learned what I do not want. 19.11.1974 is the birth datum of him. Someone told me, this is the one for me and I see so much things in common in our birth chart. But now, this is not the person I want to have next to me. We separated fell weeks ago. And this is good.
Pluto was over my Moon and Venus few years ago? How many years?
Actually, I always meet someone new, but things are not working out - on and off relationships, affairs etc. And yes, I know, I need my privacy, my space, but on and off relationships toke my power. Maybe a distant relationship ist something for me? I am aware of my need for freedom. To receive and give love in practical way is the thing for me. My ex the scorpio - it was like this at the beginning, but not months after this. For me is important to give and receive help in a relationship.
There is another man. Since years, maybe 4? 3? I can't remember when we first met. Now he is back in my life. He is one of the owners of the company I work in. He said once to me years ago: if we do not make business together, there will be something else between us. We met 1 month ago for the first time since an year, write every few weeks. 27.09.1975 is his birth date. From the first time I met this man, I thought: this ist the man I want to have next to me. What do you thing? Or I just have to stop daydreaming?
North Node in 8th H - I googled it, but the topic was money...I will search more, you see money, power, career are important things for me and things are working pretty well.
No one sad something about children?
And maybe another question. It is related to my love life to. Do you see moving to a different country? I am not feeling like I want to stay here anymore....
And: when will Saturn conjunct my North Node?
Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I see you like older men too. Love combined with work is also a Saturnian thing.
Actually everything you say is very Saturnian and Uranian.
February 2011, T.Pluto was in Cap 6°-7°,
Since then it's in your DSC slowly conjucting all your 7th H planets. And now it's conjuncting your Saturn. T.Pluto will be on your North Node till around the end of 2022.
Many lessons/transformations in relationships.
It's also common to bring Plutonian people or Plutonian relationships (synastry).
Passion, obsession, jealousy, pain, transformation are some Plutonian themes.
The on-off thing is Uranian.
Unconventional is any type of relationship that isn't conventional.
It can be:
Different colour/ethnicity/background/language whatever feels very foreign/different/weird to your environment. It can be a long distance relationship, it can be a relationship with someone who is unavailable (married or in relationship with someone else or he can't/doesn't want to be in a relationship even though he's in love with you).
It can be that you sleep in different bedrooms of the same house or he needs to be away because of his job. It may be that he stays at home taking care of it and raising your children and you bring the money. So he plays wife you play husband role. Anything that will make your relationship different from what's considered "normal".
Synastry shows compability and relationship themes. To see when you'll get married you need to check your progressions, transits and solar return/arc. It's a lot of work. I can't personally read solar arc/return at all and I know super basic & generic stuff about transits and progressions.
If you want to see about a specific person then you have to check progressions, transits and solar arc/return for his chart too.
You mentioned that it was a mistake to spend every night together with him. Why?
What did you learn from that relationship? Why did he change?
My advise to anyone but especially the ones who have Neptune/Uranus in the 7th H (or heavy Neptunian and Uranian energy) is to get to know the person (and themselves at the same time) very well before they get married and have children.
Living under the same roof for at least 2-3 years is the best way to find out if that person is suitable to be your life partner. After 2-3 years the beaitiful first magic phase wears of naturally. If you live with that person under the same roof the procedure is even quicker because rrality hits you 100% and it will kill any false idealism.
When you'll have kids it will be way more difficult. Do you even want to have kids? If you were a man I wouldn't even ask you because it's easy to be a dad but you're a woman.. You will actually take care of that kid 24/7 for many years of your life. If you can't stand a partner every night then you'll lose it with kids. Unless you have money for babysiters or leave it mainly to other people to raise it for you.
"If I knew how raising up a child is before I gave birth, I would never be a mom". I've heard it so many times (they never say it in front of others of course, including their husbands). It's because I'm being open with my opinions that other women open up to me. But honestly none of them says these things in front of others. They play the "children are a blessing" role.
I'm just telling you this in order for you to be careful because once you have kids you can never go back. And it doesn't affect just your life but your kid's early and later lide too.
Aries and Aqua Moon
Mars/Uranus/Neptune in hard aspect to Moon
make the worst parents (although other aspects like Saturn in hard aspect to Mars or even Saturn in 5th H can balance these aspects) because they have the greatest need for freedom and indepedence. You won't find a creature more depedent on you than a child.
I feel like you want to get married and have children because of how you have it in your head, which seems to me that is a bit far away from reality.
People when in love at first they give 100% of themselves because of that intense new feeling/infatuation/enthusiasm. Some lose it after a while but even if they don't it's normal for them to not give their 100% to you.. they have other things to do too. Some may even pretend. That is why it's important to get to know each other.
*Your Saturn Return will be exact around January 2020 but T.Saturn is said to affect 6-7 orbs before the aspect gets exact and up to 5 orbs after the aspect gets exact.
T.Saturn conjunct your NN in February-March, Nobember-December 2020.
North Node in 8th H wants you to learn how to share everything in a deeply intimate relationship, how to let go of yourself and other people when the time comes. And that is after you learned your lesson, after the transformation. 8th H is ruled by Scorpio, You may attract people with Scorpio or Pluto aspects in their chart. You can learn from them how to ley go in intimate relationship. First how to give all of yourself and then how to let go of that person you loved. It will transform you.