Saturn/Pluto lessons are always intense, life changing and transformative. The key is to create positive transformation and it seems you are doing that by trying to figure out the meaning of it all.
The Saturn/Pluto conjunction is plowing through your 7th house of personal relationships. The hopeful outcome will be that you will soon ’see the light’ in that area of your life, after overcoming old archaic , limiting thought patterns and negative beliefs about your inability to love and accept love.
Saturn/Pluto unearths those old rigid behaviour patterns and makes way for new ways of being and reacting towards others. You may feel vulnerable during this time, as those old defense mechanisms are destroyed.
You may feel unmasked, as that Sat/Pluto opposes your Ascendant and the Cancer stellium.
Sun/Ascendant/Mercury and Chiron in Cancer wants to hide and feel safe in it’s protective shell. These transits are making that more difficult to do. Your illness forces you to seek help and treatment and to discuss needs and feelings and life circumstances, bringing you out into the open. Making you feel vulnerable and uncomfortable. But don't hide.
I think your Leo energy is enjoying this shake up. Jupiter/Mars/Venus in Leo in 2nd/3rd of communication and values wants close friendships and wants to be valued and admired.
This Saturn/Pluto conjunction can help make that happen. It makes a quincunx to the Leo planets and spurs them into some kind of action, even if in bits and starts. It might not feel totally resolved yet, but you are making progress towards defining what you desire and your basic need to feel loved and appreciated.
In your natal chart, Pluto squares those Leo planets and they may have felt blocked for much of your life. Pluto by transit has now formed a sextile with itself, and so that Leo energy can be unblocked and reawakened. Opportunities open up now.
For some reason you may have felt the need to ‘freeze out’ your Leo magnetic, sexual desires and your sexual magnetism in the past. People are probably attracted to your Mars/Venus Leo conjunction but that Jupiter quincunx to your Uranus/Neptune warns them off. You manage to subconsciously do or say something to put them off, and tell them you are not available. Jupiter in Leo can be temperamental and a bit much. So people have backed off in the past.
Now this Saturn/Pluto is now plowing through that 7th and resetting that Leo triple conjunction.
If you want to be empowered by that magnetic, sexual energy that is yours, you can own it again.
To do so, you need to own it, accept it, love it, feel positive about yourself and your desires. Know that you would be a great partner and you have a lot of love to give and deserve love.
If anything negative comes up for you when you read that or say that, now is the time to dig deeper and root it out with the help of Saturn/Pliuto.
Saturn/Pluto archetype is the wise old man and the shaman. Whomever that describes for you in your life, seek their help.