moonriver33
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I posted my birth chart taken from Cafe Astrology (if there's a better website let me know!) and I was hoping to get some insight into what would be a good path for me. I'm at a cross roads right now. I'm newly out of an abusive relationship and I don't know where to go. I spend most of my time running from experience to experience, good or bad, but I'd rather live through terrible things than be bored. I've had fantasies of running away and exploring different states or parts of the world, and growing up I had untapped dreams of being a singer or an actress or something glamorous. I am very talented, creative, and smart...but terribly shy and unmotivated with low self esteem and a general fear of other people. I sometimes feel like a walking open wound. I've gone through too many unfulfilling jobs, and 2 bad relationships. I just want to figure out where my life is going, or if I'll ever find real happiness. It isn't hard to keep me happy, it's just I've had a lot of bad luck. I have a dependent personality and I think I attract toxic people because of that. Sexual abuse has also followed me since childhood, in random encounters, so I'm wondering if there's something in my chart that indicates that? Or maybe that's also more bad luck? I know I create a lot of problems for myself and I contradict myself a lot. I've never done anything like this before and I apologize for ranting. Basically....help?