Revisiting this thread because I only realized very recently I have some childhood trauma I need to deal with and I feel like the moon may be pertinent here, especially considering the trauma involves my mom. This trauma I believe extends its impact to relationships, interpersonal, romantic, and intrapersonal. I understand with Saturn and Pluto, there may be some issues with repression, control, brutality, harshness
Moon quintile Pluto
https://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=13644
"A Quintile is essentially an aspect that displays energy which others clearly see within you, yet you yourself do not realize you have-- though the ability to build upon it is there once recognized."
"As I mentioned in the beginning, Quintiles take on very Ascendant- like qualities. If there are Quintiles in your chart, people
Will see those qualities as apart of your personality."
So with quintiles typically given the title of 'the aspect of talent', I'm guessing these are aspects that are less conscious, but still powerful and ones we need to become conscious of to be able to use that 'talent' whether it's a straightforward talent or more like a skill or mechanism
I could be wrong, but correct me if so
http://astroarena12.blogspot.com/2014/06/moon-pluto-aspects-deep-well.html
"[FONT="]With the Moon conjunct, opposite, square, sextile, or trine Pluto, you are a deep well. The Moon is the planet of emotional responses and needs, so the intense power of Pluto connected to it means that you don’t have a faint heart. Instead, all of the emotional energy of your Moon sign is strengthened and amplified, resulting in a highly emotional nature, even if your Moon sign is in Air or Earth. Now, being so emotionally intense can allow you to live a deeply fulfilled life of boundless inner riches. But, it could also be the source of an almost endless cycle of inner turmoil. For you, Moon-Pluto, the task is learning to deal with the very power of your emotions, as well as their source."[/FONT]
[FONT="]So I'm thinking perhaps this is one of the possible aspects in my chart of untouched emotional issues, like there's this deep well that others can see but I myself may not be fully aware of and so it risks projection as anything we're less conscious of does. It makes sense...I've just begun coming back to something I noticed in myself as a teenager which I described as this door behind which lay intense, chaotic emotions that would suck me dry if I opened the door. A part of me always wanted to open it, but I didn't know how. There was something inside of me keeping me from doing so because I think that's where all the childhood **** lies[/FONT]
[FONT="]I need to open that deep well and use it to fill me rather than let it control me as it does. I think it can possibly be a reason why in relationships, I may become controlling or jealous very easily. Maybe this is the source of Plutonian relationship issues I've been searching for lol. It would make even more sense since I really do believe that trauma is why I've had such a hard time with relationships, easily feeling insecure and projecting that by either making the other person feel insecure or trying to control them so that I don't feel controlled or **** like that[/FONT]
[FONT="]It's terrible, I know. Most of that is in my past, but at this point, they're only not issues because I've recognized them and have started to suppress them which isn't getting to the root of the issue which I feel is linked with selfesteem which could easily be represented by the moon[/FONT]
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Moon quintile Pluto: Adopting a hard, ruthless, self-punishing style of behaviour in response to events. In some cases the person seems to be bent on self-destruction (physical or mental) through his behaviour; in other cases there is a façade of hardness and ruthlessness. "[/FONT]
[FONT="]--This makes a lot of sense too. I harden myself in the face of life. I'm harsh and brutal with myself and I don't ever treat myself with kid gloves. Self destruction of course I already know about. Perhaps this relates to the 'deep well of emotions'. I don't exactly know how to handle it, so I have to harden myself until I figure it out. I'm brutal with myself because all of what makes me feel weak hasn't been reckoned with fully even tho I've tried and have done so much working with my shadow. Self destruction because these emotions run so deep that they need to be expressed and with Pluto revolving around control, self destruction is a very perverse means of control as well as showing myself just what I can take. There's definitely this inner beast within me and I can even feel it when I write these words
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