turkish girl
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Some people will think i exaggrate things or i should be thankful what i have got . Since the time i truly know myself i can not define some periods i was totally happy and peaceful.There was always something wrong through parents or other relatives or about my brother or me etc.I remember myself counting days down when i was 9-10 to reach my 18th anniversay and get a new life and leave home etc.
Even now i am 24 and a bit more,nothing changed really.Now things comes so and so much heavier than before.Sometimes i feel like i am going to lose my control.Past baggage and when new problems added there ,i feel like i am going nowhere.I even can not understand how i came to this point.
I am not satisfied with anything,feeling terribly alone in these crowd,crying for days ,lost my motivation towards my job,trying to study for hours everyday,crying then studying then crying again.
Except a few close friends i mostly keep rejecting friend's invitation because i do not see any point to spend my time with them.I do not feel belonged to anywhere or anyone and it kills me.Unfortunately terribly obsessed finding love and getting sick of it too.
I feel like day by day i am becoming a harsh person.I do not want to be that powerful who forgets how to feel,who feels numb.I am losing my tolerance for everything.
When things will turn finally normal?Or will i get crazy like my dad?Sincerely i am afraid to become crazy because of lots of genetic factors..I already had panic attacks and still afraid of it.I do not want to take suggestion for the situation i am in now.So no misunderstanding ,the way i explained all these was not for you guys to cheer me up or nurture or something.It was for clarifying.
Please just give me an astrology reading regarding my question.
thank you very much for your time...
Even now i am 24 and a bit more,nothing changed really.Now things comes so and so much heavier than before.Sometimes i feel like i am going to lose my control.Past baggage and when new problems added there ,i feel like i am going nowhere.I even can not understand how i came to this point.
I am not satisfied with anything,feeling terribly alone in these crowd,crying for days ,lost my motivation towards my job,trying to study for hours everyday,crying then studying then crying again.
Except a few close friends i mostly keep rejecting friend's invitation because i do not see any point to spend my time with them.I do not feel belonged to anywhere or anyone and it kills me.Unfortunately terribly obsessed finding love and getting sick of it too.
I feel like day by day i am becoming a harsh person.I do not want to be that powerful who forgets how to feel,who feels numb.I am losing my tolerance for everything.
When things will turn finally normal?Or will i get crazy like my dad?Sincerely i am afraid to become crazy because of lots of genetic factors..I already had panic attacks and still afraid of it.I do not want to take suggestion for the situation i am in now.So no misunderstanding ,the way i explained all these was not for you guys to cheer me up or nurture or something.It was for clarifying.
Please just give me an astrology reading regarding my question.
thank you very much for your time...