Part of what you are experiencing is the collapse of illusions during a transformation of your life ideals. That is due to one transit: Pluto
parallel natal Neptune. You can read about it here:
Pluto’s transit conjunct/parallel natal Neptune -- an aspect of declination. Pluto is currently 22S08 and your natal Neptune 22S06. So you can see how near exact the transit is.
So the Pluto influence in your transits is happening only partly in the longitudes shown in this flat wheel chart: Pluto's quincunx to natal Mars, which is a transit that brings adjustments in patterns of action and how passion/vitality is directed.
The other transits by Pluto are happening in
declination:
- parallel natal Saturn 22S32: a transit in which your tenacity is tested, your life restructured to some degree; expect the old definitions of material security to be challenged, requiring an update and some breakdown so you'll let go of ineffective notions in them.
- IF your Asc figure is pretty accurate, Pluto is contra-parallel it (22 -23° N). That outlines a period of a few years in which you have an empowerment challenge in which others may seem to have an outsize influence upon you, your relationships, challenging you and your sense of equality and strength.
In addition, Saturn now 20S02 has been contra-parallel your natal Mercury 19N56 since February. This is a transit that is a preliminary to the opposition to come later when Saturn moves further into Aquarius and opposes natal Mercury. It is a test of how you handle bad news, setbacks, and problems. It often times a moment in life when you say goodbye to something and/or someone that no longer is serving you. During these transits it can be a real challenge to keep a constructive, positive frame of mind, because the tendency is to see problems everywhere and to focus on the negative. But that would be detrimental. You have to work harder to keep your mind open and affirm the positives you know (or want to be true) about yourself.
So these kinds of transits outline a time in which some failures are usually experienced in order to reconcile your expectations or life ideals with practicalities in getting there or with your real underlying purpose.
Not a fun time, but it can be very rewarding later on if you use the time well and face the issues that have come up. With these transits it is hard to go with the flow, but accepting failures is part of casting them in a new, more positive light so you can move on.