MaeMae
Banned
Had another row with my lover - a married man. Going on a year and ahalf now. It's very bad for me. Good for him. He has everything just the way he wants it. Me? Not so much.
I've made dozens of attempts to end it, always allowing myself to get sucked back in. When I tell him it's over, he acts unaffected, then if I haven't caved in and contacted him for more than a week or so, he text's or calls innocently, and then, back to square one. I am weak. I admit it. But I am also disgusted. With myself and the entire situation. It has drained a lot of spirit out of me to stay involved with him, and though I've been earnest in trying, I always fail or give in.
Exhausted now. I just want my life back. I have made a determination to stand my ground and just wait for the hurt to go away. It's like quitting an addiction, but I want to know if I'm gonna be able to pull it off.
Does this horary chart show likelihood or just more smoke up the chimney?
I've made dozens of attempts to end it, always allowing myself to get sucked back in. When I tell him it's over, he acts unaffected, then if I haven't caved in and contacted him for more than a week or so, he text's or calls innocently, and then, back to square one. I am weak. I admit it. But I am also disgusted. With myself and the entire situation. It has drained a lot of spirit out of me to stay involved with him, and though I've been earnest in trying, I always fail or give in.
Exhausted now. I just want my life back. I have made a determination to stand my ground and just wait for the hurt to go away. It's like quitting an addiction, but I want to know if I'm gonna be able to pull it off.
Does this horary chart show likelihood or just more smoke up the chimney?
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