With having both Luminaries in Sagittarius, everything in life for you must have a connected purpose of the spirit. That alone can be difficult to maintain and will snowball into depression if you feel life is empty. Your Venus is conjunct Mercury.... you have a way of expressing loving feelings and may be mentally absorbed with thoughts of love and beauty.... but Venus is conjunct Saturn also. Saturn may bring love in later phases of life, or maybe an older lover. Regardless, love comes with (Saturn) responsibilities and often limitations. This can be expressed in such areas where others are in pain or limited.... such as a homeless soup kitchen or with foster children or along that area. I mention children because the house we find Cancer in is where we go for to sooth the soul. Cancer rules your 5th house. Dating also rules this house and with Venus conjunct Mercury (communication) on line dating would be good for you also.
In addition to what wintersprite1 has said, we can look at the triplicity rulers of the ASC for help with this. In your case the third ruler (for this stage of life) is the Moon. Here she is angular in the 10th, strong for coming out of the beams the day you were born, and in mutual reception with Jupiter, exalted in your 5th. I'd say yes, it gets better.
Oh yuck! 83-84 were horrible years in work and in love. I'll look into Saturn returns. Thanks again.Maybe. Here's the culprit for right now, I think. You are experiencing your second Saturn return. Transiting Saturn is hovering right now at about 9*Scorpio. Your 1st Saturn return happened around 1983-84, so you could try looking back to what was going on then to see if similar themes are repeating.
There are many threads here and elsewhere online about Saturn returns. You could try searching for those. But it could very well explain why you are looking for answers, and help, at this moment.
Ok, there it is. I could feel it. Intensity indeed!Thank you, Stillone. Yes that is me and my beloved Casper sharing a true communion of the heart. It was taken about 3 years ago and, thankfully, Casper is still with me about 10 feet away as I type this. As for the deep connection, I achieve it easier with animals than with men because all the human stuff doesn't get in the way. But yes, I would love to find that deep connection with a fellow human. Hopefully one day, I will. As for my ideas of love, i think my longings can be likened to "intensity." A fierceness that digs its heels in and stays the course, the way I dedicate myself to an animal. When I bring an animal into my home, it is for life. I swear to him or her that I will always be there for them and I live by those words. The way I dedicated myself to seeing my mother through the dying process. Dedication. Devotedness. If only I could experience that with a human, other than my mother, of course. My mother in her later years was able to relate to me wordlessly, while others that visited her needed to keep up the chatter. Another reason why I find it easy to bond with animals. It all comes from the heart. It's all "vibe." I don't want to be rich, I don't need it. I don't need alot of excitement. I want a communion of hearts.
Interesting for my career. Presently, I am not feeling very appreciated at work and am thinking of moving elsewhere. It seems from what you have said, this would be a good time in my life to find a better position.