Wow! Yeah actually, when I was 9, my grandpa died, which was my first real experience of death.
When I was 10, I got a sprain when I fell off my bike, doing some stunt. I know it doesn't sound like much, but luckily for me that was the worst accident I've ever had!
I’m wondering what transits you’re referring to at 9 and 10?
And 16 was just a pretty messy year all around. One thing that comes to mind in particular was that that was the year that my mom went into hospital. Things looked pretty bad for a while.
Pluto conjunct the MC would’ve been transiting my 10th house with Pluto in Scorpio. I’ve read that the 10th house is representative of the dominant parent. I’m wondering if this is maybe what it was about?
In my mind, my mother was always VERY Scorpionic, and our relationship’s always been complicated. It was around this time I went back to therapy. I think confronting the possibility of losing her triggered some buried emotions in me. For the first time in my life I was grieving for the relationship that we didn't have, and not just stewing in anger and resentment. At first I tried to "fix" things, mainly by trying to change my mother, but in the end I learned to accept her as she is and take responsibility for myself, which kind of sounds like a Pluto lesson to me?
Hopefully that’s not too much information. I’m still trying to get a feel for posting.
I understand that the release point of the Kite would be Neptune and Uranus on the ascendant. How should I be trying to work with that?
You mentioned Venus Retrograde-- I’m wondering of what significance it is that I have retrograde Venus opposing retrograde Jupiter in my chart.
With a Capricorn asc, Neptune conj. asc. sq. Sun and Venus and Jupiter both retrograde, I feel like I’ve always struggled socially, like things the things that come naturally to other people are just really confusing to me. I don't know how to be light or spontaneous. I read in one of the links that when you have a retrograde planet in opposition to a direct planet it limits the potential for growth and understanding. Is that improved or made worse when both planets are retrograde? (Sorry, should I be putting this in a new thread? :S)
Thanks for the info!
