hi brooke.
your OCD is likely symbolized but the mercury square to uranus.
i overlooked this aspec as the satrun/chion dynamic applied directly to relationships.
the uranus/mercury square shows you are extremely intelligent but without patience ,it can show abrupt changes and problems with temper,though with the neptune/satrun midpoint conjunct uranus,temper is probably not a issue.
this aspect also brings strong psychic/astral energies,but if one does not understand these energies ,them this square can show chaotic mental states.this aspect tends to give you vivid,astral dreams that may be prophectic but with the neptune.saturn midpoint conjunct uranus,you often have "scary" dreams.with the mercury/uranus midpont square to pluto,it all becomes more complicated ,as you may repress and not remember any of these phenomema.the pluto square also likely shows that you have repressed memories.
i still find your father's influence problematic.more so sinse you likely have
repressed memories.
the problem is that if the relationship with your father is a factor in your issues with men,because this is what is ,then these issues will not change,no matter how positive your attitude,if there is no change in the relationship with him
rahu