Kite
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OK - so now that we've begun the unpacking of the Chiron-Uranus opposition in terms of it playing a role in addiction or at least in wanting to build awareness and ultimately freedom from the dynamics causing the pain (we have done that haven't we ), then lets take another turn on the road and look at another factor - Pan.
For you Tarot fans out there, Pan is pictured on the Devil card as the Goatish figure that lives out in the woods and inspires Pan-ic in people that walk through as he trolls for pleasure (Pan is a pretty horny devil ).
I have alluded above and elsewhere in the forum that I believe the pain involved in addiction is related to the separation from source we all feel as we incarnate into 3D. Pan in the chart could show where/how this separation plays out as part of the myth shows Pan escaping from one of the other Gods by jumping into a stream (of unconsciousness maybe) and turning his goatlike body below the water into a fish (so Pisces like). Relates very well to our own Peter Pan story of not wanting to grow up and playing forever in the dreamlike state.
I'll go first. I have Pan (Object 4450 at astro.com) at Sabian 22 Aries in my 2nd house. The Sabian reads:
22__(22°)
GATEWAY OPENING TO THE GARDEN OF ALL DESIRED THINGS Joy and utter lack of inhibitions in objective life. Self-exaltation or bondage to the craving for happiness.
___*When positive, the degree is a high quickening to every possibility of individual discovery and experience, and when negative, a tendency to while away the years in contemplating the things which might be claimed for the self rather than making any real effort to gain them.
The only aspect to Pan I have is a trine from my unaspected Sun in Sag in 10. I have always wrestled with this weak sense of self and have fondly wished I could go back to a time when I was very young when I felt a very strong sense of who I was and how much I belonged in this world. Everything was beautiful and in it's right place. Every person I met I could sense their soul and beauty. Of course all of this changed as I moved more into the 3D reality. I must have hovered for quite some time. As I've said before, I did not speak until I was over 3.
So hear I have Pan contacting my ego center that feels pan-icky about not feeling this authentic sense of self. The panic then reaches out for whatever can feed the happiness craving. In the 2nd house we have the illusion (Pisces on the cusp) of money relieving unhappiness as well as sex (Mars in Aries conjunct the Moon and Ceres in 2 as well) and of course drugs with Pisces on the cusp and the conjunction receiving a yod boomerang from Neptune and Pluto with Jupiter (overdoing it) opposing.
Interesting how it takes an obscure asteroid or object in space to provide the missing piece to the overall puzzle of all these many aspects. I believe the Tarot card that follows the Devil is the Tower if I'm not mistaken. The Tower represents the lightning flash of understanding that takes down the false constructs. I can see where this realization of the how the heart of my chart has been creating more pain from the original pain and how it has limited me (chained) to this quest for false happiness. I also believe this is directly related to my developing Diabetes.
Louise Hay explains the spiritual cause of Diabetes as the inability to accept the joy of the moment. Obviously if one feels a lack of happiness and is constantly craving the temporal things to "fix" it, then of course one would not be in an accepting mode of what is already there. She gives an affirmation for this: This moment is filled with joy. I now choose to experience the sweetness of life.
I will begin to be very mindful of this based on lightening zap and look forward to the next card. The Star.
Kite
For you Tarot fans out there, Pan is pictured on the Devil card as the Goatish figure that lives out in the woods and inspires Pan-ic in people that walk through as he trolls for pleasure (Pan is a pretty horny devil ).
I have alluded above and elsewhere in the forum that I believe the pain involved in addiction is related to the separation from source we all feel as we incarnate into 3D. Pan in the chart could show where/how this separation plays out as part of the myth shows Pan escaping from one of the other Gods by jumping into a stream (of unconsciousness maybe) and turning his goatlike body below the water into a fish (so Pisces like). Relates very well to our own Peter Pan story of not wanting to grow up and playing forever in the dreamlike state.
I'll go first. I have Pan (Object 4450 at astro.com) at Sabian 22 Aries in my 2nd house. The Sabian reads:
22__(22°)
GATEWAY OPENING TO THE GARDEN OF ALL DESIRED THINGS Joy and utter lack of inhibitions in objective life. Self-exaltation or bondage to the craving for happiness.
___*When positive, the degree is a high quickening to every possibility of individual discovery and experience, and when negative, a tendency to while away the years in contemplating the things which might be claimed for the self rather than making any real effort to gain them.
The only aspect to Pan I have is a trine from my unaspected Sun in Sag in 10. I have always wrestled with this weak sense of self and have fondly wished I could go back to a time when I was very young when I felt a very strong sense of who I was and how much I belonged in this world. Everything was beautiful and in it's right place. Every person I met I could sense their soul and beauty. Of course all of this changed as I moved more into the 3D reality. I must have hovered for quite some time. As I've said before, I did not speak until I was over 3.
So hear I have Pan contacting my ego center that feels pan-icky about not feeling this authentic sense of self. The panic then reaches out for whatever can feed the happiness craving. In the 2nd house we have the illusion (Pisces on the cusp) of money relieving unhappiness as well as sex (Mars in Aries conjunct the Moon and Ceres in 2 as well) and of course drugs with Pisces on the cusp and the conjunction receiving a yod boomerang from Neptune and Pluto with Jupiter (overdoing it) opposing.
Interesting how it takes an obscure asteroid or object in space to provide the missing piece to the overall puzzle of all these many aspects. I believe the Tarot card that follows the Devil is the Tower if I'm not mistaken. The Tower represents the lightning flash of understanding that takes down the false constructs. I can see where this realization of the how the heart of my chart has been creating more pain from the original pain and how it has limited me (chained) to this quest for false happiness. I also believe this is directly related to my developing Diabetes.
Louise Hay explains the spiritual cause of Diabetes as the inability to accept the joy of the moment. Obviously if one feels a lack of happiness and is constantly craving the temporal things to "fix" it, then of course one would not be in an accepting mode of what is already there. She gives an affirmation for this: This moment is filled with joy. I now choose to experience the sweetness of life.
I will begin to be very mindful of this based on lightening zap and look forward to the next card. The Star.
Kite