Transisting Jupiter is now conjucnt my 7th house Pisces moon at 20 Pisces. I am feeling more optimistic about my creative work, but still deeply distressed over the fact I have no romantic prospects and all my friends live far way. In fact I am having an espeically difficult time with one thing: since I was a little girl I have dreamt of falling in love with a certain type of man, a fantasy that is rooted in my idolization of some of my male ancestors on my mother's side of the family. As a teenager, I was convinced I had to travel back to the country of oirign of these ancestors in order to find this fantasy man. I even tried to get my father to pay for a trip there after I graduated high school, but we just didn't have the money.
Even as an adult I can't shake this fantasy. Very, very 7th house Pisces moon of me, right?
*sigh* Anyhow, lately, since Jupiter's been in my 7th, whenever I see man, and especially an attractive man like an actor in a film or in TV, who "fits" the type of this fantasy man, it makes me very sad and digs up that deep yearning that I've felt since I was a little girl. Last night I was watching the show "Lost" and there's an actor in that show who reminds me a lot of this fantasy man. It was just hard to sit through that episode last night, as those feelings have been stronger for me lately then they have been in a long, long time. After watching "Lost," I became a little depressed, thinking I'll never be able to stop looking for this fantasy man and I starting getting angry with myself for being so foolish.
I think this has to do with this Jupiter transit, as even though I've always been a "sucker" for men who fit the type of my fantasy man, this yearning to find that fantasy man as gotten just immensely greater since tr. Jupiter came within orb conjunction of my DC.
I should also mention my Pisces moon is ruled natally by my Neptune singleton in Sag, whichis conjunct ym natal Jupiter. Not sure if the Sag placement of Neptune and being conjunct to Jupiter has anything to do with why I'm so sensitive to tr. Jupiter right now, but that neptune singleton I know makes it harder for me to break away from these deep longing I've had all my life for this fantasy man.
Also, of curious note, I have asteroid Diana conjunct my Pisces moon. I have a long history of "fleeing" from men who show interest in me, yet do not fit my ideal of this fantasy man, and have a very deep fear I'll end up "trapped" by a man who is not my fantasy man.
If anyone has anything they think they can add to my sad, pathetic predicament, please share. My chart is below: