There is nothing not to like Dear Rahu
Reality is always temporary and extremely subjective.
There is a lot to agree with what you you have said. The word 'survivor' is pretty much my middle name!
Yes i had a difficult childhood. I suffered bullying from my father which included physical and emotional abuse. Never any sexual abuse though.
I do have trouble in my relationships and in general have had quite a bit of conflict mostly in my 1-1 relationship with women and at work (or both!) Yes i am quite uncompromising. However i try and not be bitter about my experiences. I believe i have a LOT of integrity.
My experiences and coming to awareness of my own ppersonality has resulted me in always keeping things above board and minimising needless social contact. Antime i see people forming any illusions about me, i bring them to reality.
Being on my own since last few years and attenting some meditation courses (vipassana) has bought me peace, clarity and courage.
So please have no reservations about speaking your mind.
Lastly something that has on been my mind has been my finances. They are in severe disarray at the moment and can't seem to settle at any job or derive any satisfaction from it. It makes me feel worthless. Do suggest me in this regard if you have any insight.
Warm regards