Every year since 2007, I fall into a deep 'depressive' state around the months of mid September to November. It is worst during the 1st week of October though.
It is just odd- I feel like I am highly attuned to everything that's going on around me. I will not be able explain why I start crying, or laughing, or feel angry, but these come and go like flashes and I have no clue what triggers them. Because I feel too much, I stay away from people/situations as far as possible. I even try NOT to find the cause, and hope for the thing to pass.
When I do inadvertently find a 'trigger' I just go obsessive over it... A dark mood comes over me, that's all I can say, and usually the matter blows up in everyone's face.
One thing though, these months give me a kind of clarity that I usually don't find in the rest of the year. My creative powers also seem to be at max, and I use that to get things done.
When the time is over, I feel renewed and happy (who wouldn't be,lol)
Before someone asks, yes, I did visit a psychologist for it, it really didn't help much. I'm not looking for a solution, I'm looking for an explanation.
I thought about yearly transits and thought maybe it happens because there is some odd opposition or square happening around that time every year, but I really don't see it. Then I wondered is this something that is actually started happening from 2007 because some planet moved somewhere then, but gets enforced every year at that time for whatever reason.
I'm not sure what charts I should put up, but if anyone can help, I'll be glad to provide the charts.
It is just odd- I feel like I am highly attuned to everything that's going on around me. I will not be able explain why I start crying, or laughing, or feel angry, but these come and go like flashes and I have no clue what triggers them. Because I feel too much, I stay away from people/situations as far as possible. I even try NOT to find the cause, and hope for the thing to pass.
When I do inadvertently find a 'trigger' I just go obsessive over it... A dark mood comes over me, that's all I can say, and usually the matter blows up in everyone's face.
One thing though, these months give me a kind of clarity that I usually don't find in the rest of the year. My creative powers also seem to be at max, and I use that to get things done.
When the time is over, I feel renewed and happy (who wouldn't be,lol)
Before someone asks, yes, I did visit a psychologist for it, it really didn't help much. I'm not looking for a solution, I'm looking for an explanation.
I thought about yearly transits and thought maybe it happens because there is some odd opposition or square happening around that time every year, but I really don't see it. Then I wondered is this something that is actually started happening from 2007 because some planet moved somewhere then, but gets enforced every year at that time for whatever reason.
I'm not sure what charts I should put up, but if anyone can help, I'll be glad to provide the charts.