Thanks for your replies
The orb is 3°.
Chiron also conjunct my Venus. (6° orb)
(My Venus and Sun conjunct together and chiron is between them)
When I was younger, yes, I had issues with self-harming or destruction, and a poor self estime too. Even when I was 8 years old, I thought life was really absurd, and I would have preferred not to be born
But others configurations played so i don't really know if it's Chiron.
In my chart, Mars conjuncts my Scorpio AC in 1st house (1° orb). It can be a destructive placement. I also have Pluto in 1st house, in Scorpio)
Virgo Sun & Virgo Moon, Mercury in 12th house.... (sign known to be self-critical, etc.. /Mercury in 12th house can lead to depression or mental health issues. I had a lot of struggles with this)
I worked on my psychology to gain self-esteem. My self-concept is not too bad I think. For me the problem would be rather be Venus today