Yanel
Well-known member
Hey Yanel,
to get an idea of where your planets are relative to the constellations, on astrodienst, on the Extended Chart Selection page, where it says "chart drawing style",
instead of
Web default style
pick:
Astrodienst Fixed Stars
It shows the elliptic with the constellations. You can also see if any of your planets are actually far off the elliptic. Asteroids usually are, but planets such as the Moon and Pluto sometimes are closer to the elliptic, and sometimes are further.
Also with regards to zodiac systems, as you may know I am now a student of Vedic astrology. Not an astrologer with 30 years of experience but here is my opinion.
I think you nearly hit jack pot when you said that your tropical ascendant is acceptable with regards to how you act, but your sidereal ascendent feels real inside.
My opinion for a while now has been, tropical astrology is ego-based, and sidereal astrology is more organic and has an inevitable feel to it. That's why tropical can be accurate with regards to behavior (after all, it Western astrology is Sun-based and the Sun represents pride and authority, things that factor into image and popularity) but I can't help but want to work with the sidereal zodiac because it feels right.
I had such a hard time in the beginning because I was under the impression that one was right, and the other was wrong. They just work on different dimensions of ourselves, and anyone who thinks (feeling that self-righteous passion again!!) that they can't be two signs at once needs a lecture in human complexity and identity layers!!
To find the one you prefer, quite honestly I think you're having a hard time choosing because you've given too much of your power away to external opinions, and I can totally relate if that is the case. Sorry, I agree that you have to choose, and that it is that simple, because the answers that are right for you ARE inside you. There is no single right way that can be carved out for you without your own experience. However, I get where you are, and I'll share my way of studying this objectively when it gets hard to.
Look to the IC/MC axis. This can be separated from the ego because it's based on fact...somewhat more based on fact. It's about how you were born and raised, and how your family life and childhood influences the things you want from your life and who you've become. In my experience, the sidereal zodiac will give the more literal experience, whereas the tropical zodiac gives a more individual psychological experience.
EDIT: PS. just for the record ... remember that Grand Water Trine we had last summer between Saturn, Neptune, and Jupiter, that astrologers were going crazy about?? How did you experience the water, anyone?
Personally I felt both water and air, but a lot of air... because I was battling feelings of rejection by someone but I was also doing a shitload of research and getting my driver's liscence so any watery energy there was out there to feed on I must have numbed out.
So if Vedic astrology digs deeper, then what is the ascendant meaning according to it? In Western the Sun is the closest energy to you, your inner self and I don't agree with this, I don't see the Sun as such an important indicator at all. In my chart and life, my Sun has so little saying for anything I feel and I am, that it's an almost invisible and non-existing influence. Not to anyone the Sun means something and if in the individual chart it's important, it's still not the true you, it's not your soul, like many astrologers say. Personally, I feel the influence only of my Moon, Mars, probably Venus and all of the outer planets without Jupiter. I feel the outer planets as very personal energies, much more important for me than the traditional inner planets.
I'm sure my Taurus ascendant is how other see me when being in a face to face contact - calm, quiet, steady(and also like a Scorpio. According to astrology Scorpio is not a strong sign in my chart but the energy of the Taurus/Scorpio axis is certainly felt by most of the people I know when I am around them. And not only by them but that's another topic...). But when I am making a contact through writing, like now, it's another thing - I can be a lot more direct. Is it just a normal human psychological thing or is it my Aries ascendant in Vedic astrology? When I started researching astrology I used another time zone for my birth chart and things were different. For a long time I believed my ascendant was in Aries and it felt so right but I knew that if you come and see me(without speaking to me) for the first time, I'd be so quiet and calm, looking at something only I can see - a void look, like only my body is in the here and now(and that is true in a way xD). Then I understood that I was using the wrong time zone(not my fault) and things got clearer. In Vedic, it's still in Aries and I don't know what it could possibly mean for me and my first house. Aside from the ascendant, I don't have anything in the first house or in the Eastern hemisphere(except for Saturn but Saturn is in 12th house. Saturn and Pluto are the hidden me but they are also the closest to me) and I don't show almost anything to the people around me. Maybe just Uranus manages to show itself outside the door but that is, nothing, nobody knows me, even relatives.
Also, is it true that the outer planes don't play a role in Vedic astrology? If it is,it's so sad, they are my favourites.
No, I don't remember anything about that trine. I don't have much respect for transits xD.
P.S./EDIT Yes, I know they, Western and Vedic astrology, are different and you can use both of them and find truth in both of them but I am the kind of person that wants to completely dive into something and completely become that thing. I like making big choices, they are rare but feel so ecstatic. When I divide my attention and interest to many things, it doesn't feel good, the one starts to compete witht the other, they start fighting, they don't want to share because it's never only the mind involved, I just can't seek for knowledge without the drama and without involving everything in me in the process. From an interesting tool, anything can become a weapon and in the end...no, there isn't an end. Every thought, feeling or obsession comes back to hunt me and "ask" for rebirth.
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