Gemini888
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Neptune conjuncts Midheaven in Capricorn is a strange and confusing placement. On one hand Capricorn is extremely grounded and determined in what it wants to do and is willing to work hard. On the other hand, Neptune is forever lost and refuses to work until something it really likes come along.
This is one of the most confusing placements I have, and also the one that cause difficulty in my life. I always want to do something related to the art, but I don't really know what kind of job to apply for. I'm working as a teacher while writing a book and I harbor a dream of being an established writer, but from time to time I wonder what is the point of even trying, like I should just settle down with being a teacher because writing doesn't earn me money. But to be honest, sometimes the job as a teacher wears me down for unknown reason. Maybe it's because I subconsciously want to write more and can't stand the idea of living an unfulfilled life, but I just can't leave the financial stability aspect of my current job.
I'm constantly depressed because of this confusion. I compare myself a lot with other people, why they all have it together and I'm such a mess. I try to search in my chart for an answer but none shows up. I'm not sure if my chart point out that I'm a hopeless idealist who will never find stability.
Here's my chart
This is one of the most confusing placements I have, and also the one that cause difficulty in my life. I always want to do something related to the art, but I don't really know what kind of job to apply for. I'm working as a teacher while writing a book and I harbor a dream of being an established writer, but from time to time I wonder what is the point of even trying, like I should just settle down with being a teacher because writing doesn't earn me money. But to be honest, sometimes the job as a teacher wears me down for unknown reason. Maybe it's because I subconsciously want to write more and can't stand the idea of living an unfulfilled life, but I just can't leave the financial stability aspect of my current job.
I'm constantly depressed because of this confusion. I compare myself a lot with other people, why they all have it together and I'm such a mess. I try to search in my chart for an answer but none shows up. I'm not sure if my chart point out that I'm a hopeless idealist who will never find stability.
Here's my chart